thoughts

[bluenorange06]

why am i so good at taking everything that's good in my life and screwing it up. why do i find it impossible to have a calm conversation with my mom about college before i go and overreact or think she's implying something she's not. why do i continuously feel like i'm hurting the one i love the most, but can't do anything to stop myself, to stop being suck a screw up. why can't i just be who everyone wants me to be, constantly giving and taking or expecting nothing in return.

i'm so fed up with myself, i hate being my own worst enemy.