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It's a new month, and I felt the need to post. Not sure why. Just did.
Spent a lot of time with the girls and my mom at the zoo today. Beautiful weather, and a holiday week, and that translated to "busy" at the zoo. Glad we went in the morning.
I'm breaking some new ground this month. I am part of the committee (all four of us) putting together a series of Healing and Wholeness Services at church. Originally I was only going to attend the first service (which is next week) because it's the day my dad passed away 17 years ago. I have spent many years hurting, healing, getting the sutures ripped open again, re-healing, and seeking "answers" sometimes with an open mind and sometimes with a chip on my shoulder. But I think I finally Understand. And while I would never foist my thoughts and beliefs on someone else, I want to "pay it forward" in memory of those who have gone before and for those who brought the bandages and the antibiotics every time I hurt. So if someone comes to this service and just needs someone else to hold their hand or pass the tissues, I'll do it. Sometimes you just need someone to be there who understands...everyone's pain is unique - physical, spiritual, emotional - and I may not understand their pain, but I understand what it's like to hurt, or watch someone else hurt and not be able to do much else except pass the tissues.
I'll be speaking at the services, and reading, and possibly singing as long as there are no rotten tomatoes available to be thrown. ;-)
I've only returned to a church of any kind as of November '07. I couldn't set foot in one for years. A) Sunday mass was something I did with my dad; B) I couldn't find any place where I felt comfortable. I don't agree with anyone 100% but I am comfortable enough with myself and my faith to agree to disagree if needed and still have respect.
Anyway, I'm ready to do this, but I'm still a little nervous. Because I really don't know HOW I'll react. Part of me doesn't want to write it down because I don't want it to sound canned going in and reading my experience....but there are ten different directions I could go and I don't want to confuse anyone. :-) But I don't know if I'll get up to talk and choke completely...have the mother of all meltdowns...I just don't know.
But I guess I'll find out.
In other news...
Making a career change is in the back of my mind...but I am just going to continue on the Path and see what happens.
I spent the day at the zoo today with the girls and my mom. The Butterfly House was stunning. Not a big space, but it was filled with sunshine, flowers, and free-flying butterflies. It was magical. DD#2 turned 5 last Saturday and my mom is 62 tomorrow. A nice day in the sun.
Tomorrow, probably swimming with the kids. Well, I'll be sitting next to the pool while DD#1 swims and DD#2 wades. I don't swim.
The order for my butterfly bushes disappeared. We were never charged but the order got lost, so no bushes to plant till fall. Bummer.
Still doing karate....still trying to run, but I know I better start kicking it into high gear if I'm going to do that half marathon. Holy cow, it's only in a few months! Still trying to make ends meet or at least come within a few centimeters of each other.
avengangle, I started Terry Pratchett's "The Fifth Elephant" last week. I'm about 160 pages in and I really like it! :D
Along with many of my fellow Gate Geeks, mourning the sudden passing of Don S. Davis. So glad I got the chance to meet him in 2005 at The Con. :-)
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"Let the river run....let all the dreamers wake the nation..."
Spent a lot of time with the girls and my mom at the zoo today. Beautiful weather, and a holiday week, and that translated to "busy" at the zoo. Glad we went in the morning.
I'm breaking some new ground this month. I am part of the committee (all four of us) putting together a series of Healing and Wholeness Services at church. Originally I was only going to attend the first service (which is next week) because it's the day my dad passed away 17 years ago. I have spent many years hurting, healing, getting the sutures ripped open again, re-healing, and seeking "answers" sometimes with an open mind and sometimes with a chip on my shoulder. But I think I finally Understand. And while I would never foist my thoughts and beliefs on someone else, I want to "pay it forward" in memory of those who have gone before and for those who brought the bandages and the antibiotics every time I hurt. So if someone comes to this service and just needs someone else to hold their hand or pass the tissues, I'll do it. Sometimes you just need someone to be there who understands...everyone's pain is unique - physical, spiritual, emotional - and I may not understand their pain, but I understand what it's like to hurt, or watch someone else hurt and not be able to do much else except pass the tissues.
I'll be speaking at the services, and reading, and possibly singing as long as there are no rotten tomatoes available to be thrown. ;-)
I've only returned to a church of any kind as of November '07. I couldn't set foot in one for years. A) Sunday mass was something I did with my dad; B) I couldn't find any place where I felt comfortable. I don't agree with anyone 100% but I am comfortable enough with myself and my faith to agree to disagree if needed and still have respect.
Anyway, I'm ready to do this, but I'm still a little nervous. Because I really don't know HOW I'll react. Part of me doesn't want to write it down because I don't want it to sound canned going in and reading my experience....but there are ten different directions I could go and I don't want to confuse anyone. :-) But I don't know if I'll get up to talk and choke completely...have the mother of all meltdowns...I just don't know.
But I guess I'll find out.
In other news...
Making a career change is in the back of my mind...but I am just going to continue on the Path and see what happens.
I spent the day at the zoo today with the girls and my mom. The Butterfly House was stunning. Not a big space, but it was filled with sunshine, flowers, and free-flying butterflies. It was magical. DD#2 turned 5 last Saturday and my mom is 62 tomorrow. A nice day in the sun.
Tomorrow, probably swimming with the kids. Well, I'll be sitting next to the pool while DD#1 swims and DD#2 wades. I don't swim.
The order for my butterfly bushes disappeared. We were never charged but the order got lost, so no bushes to plant till fall. Bummer.
Still doing karate....still trying to run, but I know I better start kicking it into high gear if I'm going to do that half marathon. Holy cow, it's only in a few months! Still trying to make ends meet or at least come within a few centimeters of each other.
avengangle, I started Terry Pratchett's "The Fifth Elephant" last week. I'm about 160 pages in and I really like it! :D
Along with many of my fellow Gate Geeks, mourning the sudden passing of Don S. Davis. So glad I got the chance to meet him in 2005 at The Con. :-)
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"Let the river run....let all the dreamers wake the nation..."