Alone
From: LSD - view profile Date: Thurs, Dec 21 2006 1:22 am Email: "LSD" Groups: -censored-
yupz.. i'm always alone, no matter how many time i heard those "i will
be always for you" words why i'm alwas alone.. maybe i just push away
people, i run from them, i don't want to see anyone.. people hurt, lie,
betray, selfish.. why they are trying to get close to me.. just get
away-- leave me. to get suffocated in this invisible darkness i'm
creating-- just leave me till my body gets putrefacted and hopefully i
will be a good fertelizer for a tree
...-- maybe i scare people like this little girl that went close to me,
i just made a face and she ran from me to her daddy's arm, even kids
know i'm scary
i can't find where i belong, i don't belong here, then i came to ash,
thinking that maybe this is my place, maybe i can find friends here,
maybe they could help me to die, but then i realized that's not true,
the few people [5 guys] that wanted to know me, i pushed them away
too.. why i do this?-- how i can stop? -- i want them to see me but at
the same time i want to be invisible -- this whole "friendship" thing
makes more difficult to leave but hey-- why.. i mean i don't even get
what friendship means? .. well some people called themselves my
"friends" i think i called some with that name too.-- but *looks
around*.. why i'm still alone
i wish i could put in order all my thoughts -- i can't even write
propertly, not think propertly.. is this thinking? i can't think, i'm
stupid
yupz.. i'm always alone, no matter how many time i heard those "i will
be always for you" words why i'm alwas alone.. maybe i just push away
people, i run from them, i don't want to see anyone.. people hurt, lie,
betray, selfish.. why they are trying to get close to me.. just get
away-- leave me. to get suffocated in this invisible darkness i'm
creating-- just leave me till my body gets putrefacted and hopefully i
will be a good fertelizer for a tree
...-- maybe i scare people like this little girl that went close to me,
i just made a face and she ran from me to her daddy's arm, even kids
know i'm scary
i can't find where i belong, i don't belong here, then i came to ash,
thinking that maybe this is my place, maybe i can find friends here,
maybe they could help me to die, but then i realized that's not true,
the few people [5 guys] that wanted to know me, i pushed them away
too.. why i do this?-- how i can stop? -- i want them to see me but at
the same time i want to be invisible -- this whole "friendship" thing
makes more difficult to leave but hey-- why.. i mean i don't even get
what friendship means? .. well some people called themselves my
"friends" i think i called some with that name too.-- but *looks
around*.. why i'm still alone
i wish i could put in order all my thoughts -- i can't even write
propertly, not think propertly.. is this thinking? i can't think, i'm
stupid