so I broke up with my boyfriend today
Not sure if we "really" broke up.. we have been together for like almost 5 years .. and there have been many "brakes up"
and we always get back together again but I feel like watching the movie of julia roberts .. "eat pray love" there is a part when the guy say "I miss you" and she said "so miss me, send me love and light everytime you think of me and then drop it".
I think that quote goes for me right now..
I LOVE him I would be lying if I said I didn't but our thing simple feels like it wasn't working out, we simply think different, we have different ideas of what is "right". He got mad everytime I was with my (male) friend but I wasn't doing anything bad, but he got mad with the idea of simple being with him, he spoke like my dad many times, "don't be in other people house while you have your own", come on that's so old minded! I was like well he is right but I;m not doing anything wrong so whats the big deal so I keep doing the things he didn;t like and well things just went like that in circles and circles ... we kept trying to "fix our relation" but I think it was me who was doing the things bad. So I was like well things will go over and over like this but its my fault so I must try to fix this but I kept doing the same things and well here I am complaining about it. Single. And complaining about it.
I hope he really can forget about me, I feel like I totally ruined his life.
He was right about some things but there I was doing the same crap as I always do. Ruining lives.
Sometimes I felt like he didn't listened to me, everytime we saw each other .. like 80% we were fighting, if it wasn't because of my friend, it was because I didn't have time for him, or because my car was dirty, or because my skirt was so short. So maybe this is the best, but then maybe I'm like fine right now because I know we will be together again, but then I don't want to go to that stupid circle again and again and again and again till I get old.
I have done nothing good in my life, so I must start letting him go.
Then I think, will he met a girl that will love him like he deserves? I pray to God he does.
and we always get back together again but I feel like watching the movie of julia roberts .. "eat pray love" there is a part when the guy say "I miss you" and she said "so miss me, send me love and light everytime you think of me and then drop it".
I think that quote goes for me right now..
I LOVE him I would be lying if I said I didn't but our thing simple feels like it wasn't working out, we simply think different, we have different ideas of what is "right". He got mad everytime I was with my (male) friend but I wasn't doing anything bad, but he got mad with the idea of simple being with him, he spoke like my dad many times, "don't be in other people house while you have your own", come on that's so old minded! I was like well he is right but I;m not doing anything wrong so whats the big deal so I keep doing the things he didn;t like and well things just went like that in circles and circles ... we kept trying to "fix our relation" but I think it was me who was doing the things bad. So I was like well things will go over and over like this but its my fault so I must try to fix this but I kept doing the same things and well here I am complaining about it. Single. And complaining about it.
I hope he really can forget about me, I feel like I totally ruined his life.
He was right about some things but there I was doing the same crap as I always do. Ruining lives.
Sometimes I felt like he didn't listened to me, everytime we saw each other .. like 80% we were fighting, if it wasn't because of my friend, it was because I didn't have time for him, or because my car was dirty, or because my skirt was so short. So maybe this is the best, but then maybe I'm like fine right now because I know we will be together again, but then I don't want to go to that stupid circle again and again and again and again till I get old.
I have done nothing good in my life, so I must start letting him go.
Then I think, will he met a girl that will love him like he deserves? I pray to God he does.