old...boring entries..of my old..boring account
August 07, 2005
NECESITO
Te necesito,
necesito ver tu rostro
ver tu sonriza mimada
necesita comtemplar tu mirada
despertar por la mañana
con tu rostro en mi mente
dormir por la noche
saber que estas presente.
Necesito tus besos
tus calidos abrazos
tus dulces caricias
tus palabras de aliento.
Necesito que estes junto a mi,
necesito que sepas cuanto te extraño
que no puedo seguir sin ti
que talvez lo nuestro nunca te impoto,
talvez ni pienses en mi,
pero necesito que sepas
que yo por ti siempre mori.
March 29, 2006
april 2, 2006
ONLY ME
may 16, 2006
and it sucks as much as the spanish but here i go..
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Looking his smile from from a distant place
admiring his eyes where they can't reach me
dreaming how his hair must smell
and how warm his skin would be
He's everything
i'm nothing
that's how different we are
and he will never be my side
that's what aches my heart
all i want to see is his smile
mesmerized by his charm
maybe that's the only thing that keeps me alive
but i wish i were the reason of that bright smile..
and all i can do is dreaming about him smiling for me
been happy because of me
but those are just dreams after all..
like pumpkins changing to carriages..
they will never become true
and that makes a hole in my heart
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may 18, 2006
god if you exist
may 31, 2006
sorry
i'm sorry..
i'm sorry for being useless
i'm sorry for being so stupid
i'm sorry for being a waste of money
i'm sorry for letting you always down
i'm really really sorry
for being the reason that steve died..
and it caused you lot of pain mom
you missed him everyday
and cried for him everynight
you thought that nobody listed you
but i heard you all the time
when you thought i was sleeping..
and cried in silent with you
i'm sorry cuz because of my acts
many people get hurts..
dearest people to me..died..
and i'm sorry you are reading this..
but i think..i couldn't handle anything anymore
I screamed..but nobody heard me
i cried..but nobody whiped my tears
i feared..but nobody huged me
i needed..but nobody was with me..
i'm sorry you are reading this..
hope you could forgive me...and understand..
but maybe..this is the best..
so shall i say..god bye..
and i beg..for a forgiveness..
jun 1, 2006
