[series of drabbles] WATER DANCE (4/13)
13.- Take me
SHOW ME (in the sea of love)
Kame didn’t want anyone to notice how bad he felt about it.
He did.
In fact, he didn’t even want to rehearse because he just couldn’t put a smile on his face, specially not in front of his co-workers.
“Eh? Kame? Are you sick?”, Koki asked, but Kame shook his head with distant eyes, “What’s wrong with you?”, and the younger showed a weak smile, knowing that Koki wasn’t buying it, but he didn’t care.
“Kamenashi-kun, do you want to go out with us tonight? We’re going to have dinner”, Yuto came close to him and smiled cheerfully with Yamada and Yabu doing the same thing, and Kame wanted to smile like that.
He just couldn’t.
“I’m sorry, I have work to do tonight”, he excused himself and walked to KAT-TUN dressing room.
Finally alone, he went to his bag to pick up his phone, showing a couple of text messages that he didn’t answered. A sigh slipped from his mouth, tired and with no reason to fake a smile.
His eyes were drawn by the sound of the door opening and then closing, showing one of his co-workers looking at him with weird eyes.
Kame didn’t count how much time they were there just staring at each other, and he didn’t even notice when he came close to the spot he was standing in, dropping his bag by the side of Kame’s.
“You ok?”, the voice of his friend made him look again, but Kame saw the older wasn’t looking at him.
Kame stood there in silence, waiting for him to finish rearranging his stuff.
“Kazuya?”, the other asked, leaving his bag and looking at Kame, who looked like he was scared of even breathing.
“No”
That was the only thing he needed to say.
That was the only thing Jin needed to hear.
Jin smiled and let Kame hid his face in the crook of his neck, hugging him from the waist with both arms.
He felt how the younger’s body relaxed and relieved a sigh, keeping quiet for the next couple of minutes.
HOLD ME (until I break)
“Leave me alone, you idiot!!”
“Don’t call me that, and stop walking, we need to talk!”
“We don’t! For the last time: Leave me ALONE!!”
“I won’t! We really need to talk, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you before, but I won’t leave!”
“Fine!! Stay there and freeze to death!”
That was the last thing he heard from Kame when he slammed the door on his face, leaving him outside the apartment, “freezing to death” for two very long hours.
He had the back of his head resting on the door, while his eyes remained shut, half sitting because his legs were kind of sore from all the dancing and walking and standing there waiting for Kame to open the freaking door.
Another half an hour went by and Jin sighed looking at his watch, wondering if he would have to stay there for another two hours.
He almost fell on his back when the door suddenly opened, but he didn’t turn back to see the younger, he was too ashamed.
Jin could feel Kame’s eyes on his back, but he couldn’t tell whether the other was moving or not… not at least until a pair of arms hugged his shoulders from behind and a chin rested close to his face.
“You’re cold”, he heard Kame whisper on his ear, very much relaxed than before.
Jin didn’t reply and remained in his place, not moving an inch.
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
Jin closed his eyes and used a hand to caress one of Kame’s arms, still tightly placed around his body.
“I was scared”
“Why?... I-It… It’s not… too serious, right?... Jin?”, Kame asked trying to look into Jin’s eyes, his heart began to ache as Jin said those four words.
“I’m… sure it’s not…”
But Kame knew Jin wasn’t so sure, and he also closed his eyes, tightening his embrace and planting a few kisses on the other’s cheek.
“It’ll be ok…”
Jin smiled not even opening his eyes, and he let Kame take him by the hand inside the apartment, make him sit on the couch and right after that, he felt the younger’s arms embracing him again.
Kame held him like Jin was threatening to leave, kissed his head and caressed his hair, feeling he was the older and stronger for the first time.
He was also scared, he was actually terrified, but he had to be strong. Jin couldn’t be that always… and clearly, he wasn’t that at the moment.
TELL ME (Naked as I am)
“Jin…”, he kept calling his boyfriend’s name, but got no answer, “Jin… please”
“I’m sorry…”, the other whispered moaning, using his nose to caress Kame’s cheek.
“Stop that… you’re not like this”
“Maybe… I’m not…”
“Jin, stop saying those things, don’t... you think about me anymore?”, he asked, perfectly aware of the selfish remark he was making, but he had no other choice, it was the only way.
“I always do”
“Then stop… just tell me… tell me, please”
“I can’t”
“Yes! You can, I know you can”, he grabbed his boyfriend’s face and made him look him in the eyes, feeling his own watering by the sight of Jin, “Tell me… say it, just once, please, do it for me, don’t you love me?... You said you loved me, Jin”
“I do, I love you”, Jin replied, feeling his eyes closing once more, but he managed to trace the younger’s lips with his finger. He wanted to kiss him so badly.
“Jin… tell me…”, he begged, feeling his voice crack, tired due to the energy spent just minutes ago.
Jin stared at his lover, his eyes showing how much he wanted to say those words… but he felt he was going to lie, and he couldn’t… he just couldn’t lie to him.
“Don’t…”
“Please… please, just once”
“Kazuya…”
“You said you loved me, Jin… say it, for me… please”
“I… I’ll never leave you”
LOVE ME (if it’s the truth)
“Ah~ the beach~!!!!”, Junno said stretching his arms and looking up to the bright sky, it was really hot and they were all out for a little break on the beach.
“It’s hot!”, Ueda sat on the sand, playing with Kame to push their feet on the sand.
Maru and Jin were sitting a few meters away watching the sea while Koki ran from one point to the other with a little dog he found when he got there.
“How are you feeling?... it’s really hot”, the oldest of the members asked Jin.
“I’m ok, I wanted some fresh air... Tokyo was getting annoying”
“Hey... are you really ok?”, Maru asked again, getting close to Jin, who didn’t want to look at him.
“Kind... of”, Jin sighed playing with the sand on the palm of his hand.
“What you mean?”
“I... don’t want him to suffer, he’s like... dying with me”
“Jin, don’t say such things”
“It’s the truth, I’m a big burden now and he’s trying so hard to...”
“That’s exactly why you shouldn’t be saying this, Jin”, Maru turned a little so he could have a clear view of his friend, who actually looked paler and slimmer every single time he looked carefully, “Why do you think he’s doing it?... He loves you, he wants you to be fine”
“I want him to be fine... safe, how can that be possible if he’s with me?”
“Jin...”
“Don’t tell me it’s not true, Yucci...”, he made a pause and then sighed to continue with his talk, “I-I want to ask you someth...”
“No, forget it”, Maru said completely aware of what his friend was going to ask him.
“Please... please talk to him, tell him this is not...”
“I said no, Jin, I would never do something like that”, the older shook his head, trying to hold back the urge to punch Jin for being such a jerk. He would never agree to that, Kame was his friend, he was practically his little brother, breaking his heart wasn’t a possibility, not even in this particular situation, “Now you tell me, Jin... you really think Kame would be better away from you? Do you think that would make him happier?”
“I... I...”, Jin didn’t know what to answer, he knew from the bottom of his heart the answer to those questions, but he couldn’t be selfish, not to his boyfriend... Kame deserved someone better than him.
He wasn’t able to answer cause before he could say the truth to Maru, Kame’s wet hands took his wrists and made him stand up, looking happier than ever in the last months.
“Come on, bring that lazy ass of yours”, Kame smiled again and dragged him to the water, that was even nicer than he could ever imagine.
“I’m sorry...”, Jin mumbled when taking his boyfriend’s hand to walk by the shore.
“Well... let see the good part of all this”
Jin stayed quiet with a puzzled look upon his face. What could be possibly good in their condition?
“Now I can do this...”, and the younger put his arms around Jin’s waist and kissed his chin when he knew the others weren’t watching them, “And nobody would break us apart”
Jin again stayed in silence there, looking at him with tender eyes... Kame didn’t know how much he could do to make him feel like there was nothing wrong.
Or maybe he did.
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The first "batch" so far, I just have to translate the other one, which was the most difficult drabble in the series :/
I hope you got the feeling and idea of the first four and make some comments about them, thanks a lot~
Comments are really appreciated and will be replied, I promise ;D
Ah! I went through the drabbles over and over again looking for any grammar mistakes and didn't find, so if you've spotted some, please let me know so I can correct it ^^!
Thank you~♥
SHOW ME (in the sea of love)
Kame didn’t want anyone to notice how bad he felt about it.
He did.
In fact, he didn’t even want to rehearse because he just couldn’t put a smile on his face, specially not in front of his co-workers.
“Eh? Kame? Are you sick?”, Koki asked, but Kame shook his head with distant eyes, “What’s wrong with you?”, and the younger showed a weak smile, knowing that Koki wasn’t buying it, but he didn’t care.
“Kamenashi-kun, do you want to go out with us tonight? We’re going to have dinner”, Yuto came close to him and smiled cheerfully with Yamada and Yabu doing the same thing, and Kame wanted to smile like that.
He just couldn’t.
“I’m sorry, I have work to do tonight”, he excused himself and walked to KAT-TUN dressing room.
Finally alone, he went to his bag to pick up his phone, showing a couple of text messages that he didn’t answered. A sigh slipped from his mouth, tired and with no reason to fake a smile.
His eyes were drawn by the sound of the door opening and then closing, showing one of his co-workers looking at him with weird eyes.
Kame didn’t count how much time they were there just staring at each other, and he didn’t even notice when he came close to the spot he was standing in, dropping his bag by the side of Kame’s.
“You ok?”, the voice of his friend made him look again, but Kame saw the older wasn’t looking at him.
Kame stood there in silence, waiting for him to finish rearranging his stuff.
“Kazuya?”, the other asked, leaving his bag and looking at Kame, who looked like he was scared of even breathing.
“No”
That was the only thing he needed to say.
That was the only thing Jin needed to hear.
Jin smiled and let Kame hid his face in the crook of his neck, hugging him from the waist with both arms.
He felt how the younger’s body relaxed and relieved a sigh, keeping quiet for the next couple of minutes.
HOLD ME (until I break)
“Leave me alone, you idiot!!”
“Don’t call me that, and stop walking, we need to talk!”
“We don’t! For the last time: Leave me ALONE!!”
“I won’t! We really need to talk, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you before, but I won’t leave!”
“Fine!! Stay there and freeze to death!”
That was the last thing he heard from Kame when he slammed the door on his face, leaving him outside the apartment, “freezing to death” for two very long hours.
He had the back of his head resting on the door, while his eyes remained shut, half sitting because his legs were kind of sore from all the dancing and walking and standing there waiting for Kame to open the freaking door.
Another half an hour went by and Jin sighed looking at his watch, wondering if he would have to stay there for another two hours.
He almost fell on his back when the door suddenly opened, but he didn’t turn back to see the younger, he was too ashamed.
Jin could feel Kame’s eyes on his back, but he couldn’t tell whether the other was moving or not… not at least until a pair of arms hugged his shoulders from behind and a chin rested close to his face.
“You’re cold”, he heard Kame whisper on his ear, very much relaxed than before.
Jin didn’t reply and remained in his place, not moving an inch.
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
Jin closed his eyes and used a hand to caress one of Kame’s arms, still tightly placed around his body.
“I was scared”
“Why?... I-It… It’s not… too serious, right?... Jin?”, Kame asked trying to look into Jin’s eyes, his heart began to ache as Jin said those four words.
“I’m… sure it’s not…”
But Kame knew Jin wasn’t so sure, and he also closed his eyes, tightening his embrace and planting a few kisses on the other’s cheek.
“It’ll be ok…”
Jin smiled not even opening his eyes, and he let Kame take him by the hand inside the apartment, make him sit on the couch and right after that, he felt the younger’s arms embracing him again.
Kame held him like Jin was threatening to leave, kissed his head and caressed his hair, feeling he was the older and stronger for the first time.
He was also scared, he was actually terrified, but he had to be strong. Jin couldn’t be that always… and clearly, he wasn’t that at the moment.
TELL ME (Naked as I am)
“Jin…”, he kept calling his boyfriend’s name, but got no answer, “Jin… please”
“I’m sorry…”, the other whispered moaning, using his nose to caress Kame’s cheek.
“Stop that… you’re not like this”
“Maybe… I’m not…”
“Jin, stop saying those things, don’t... you think about me anymore?”, he asked, perfectly aware of the selfish remark he was making, but he had no other choice, it was the only way.
“I always do”
“Then stop… just tell me… tell me, please”
“I can’t”
“Yes! You can, I know you can”, he grabbed his boyfriend’s face and made him look him in the eyes, feeling his own watering by the sight of Jin, “Tell me… say it, just once, please, do it for me, don’t you love me?... You said you loved me, Jin”
“I do, I love you”, Jin replied, feeling his eyes closing once more, but he managed to trace the younger’s lips with his finger. He wanted to kiss him so badly.
“Jin… tell me…”, he begged, feeling his voice crack, tired due to the energy spent just minutes ago.
Jin stared at his lover, his eyes showing how much he wanted to say those words… but he felt he was going to lie, and he couldn’t… he just couldn’t lie to him.
“Don’t…”
“Please… please, just once”
“Kazuya…”
“You said you loved me, Jin… say it, for me… please”
“I… I’ll never leave you”
LOVE ME (if it’s the truth)
“Ah~ the beach~!!!!”, Junno said stretching his arms and looking up to the bright sky, it was really hot and they were all out for a little break on the beach.
“It’s hot!”, Ueda sat on the sand, playing with Kame to push their feet on the sand.
Maru and Jin were sitting a few meters away watching the sea while Koki ran from one point to the other with a little dog he found when he got there.
“How are you feeling?... it’s really hot”, the oldest of the members asked Jin.
“I’m ok, I wanted some fresh air... Tokyo was getting annoying”
“Hey... are you really ok?”, Maru asked again, getting close to Jin, who didn’t want to look at him.
“Kind... of”, Jin sighed playing with the sand on the palm of his hand.
“What you mean?”
“I... don’t want him to suffer, he’s like... dying with me”
“Jin, don’t say such things”
“It’s the truth, I’m a big burden now and he’s trying so hard to...”
“That’s exactly why you shouldn’t be saying this, Jin”, Maru turned a little so he could have a clear view of his friend, who actually looked paler and slimmer every single time he looked carefully, “Why do you think he’s doing it?... He loves you, he wants you to be fine”
“I want him to be fine... safe, how can that be possible if he’s with me?”
“Jin...”
“Don’t tell me it’s not true, Yucci...”, he made a pause and then sighed to continue with his talk, “I-I want to ask you someth...”
“No, forget it”, Maru said completely aware of what his friend was going to ask him.
“Please... please talk to him, tell him this is not...”
“I said no, Jin, I would never do something like that”, the older shook his head, trying to hold back the urge to punch Jin for being such a jerk. He would never agree to that, Kame was his friend, he was practically his little brother, breaking his heart wasn’t a possibility, not even in this particular situation, “Now you tell me, Jin... you really think Kame would be better away from you? Do you think that would make him happier?”
“I... I...”, Jin didn’t know what to answer, he knew from the bottom of his heart the answer to those questions, but he couldn’t be selfish, not to his boyfriend... Kame deserved someone better than him.
He wasn’t able to answer cause before he could say the truth to Maru, Kame’s wet hands took his wrists and made him stand up, looking happier than ever in the last months.
“Come on, bring that lazy ass of yours”, Kame smiled again and dragged him to the water, that was even nicer than he could ever imagine.
“I’m sorry...”, Jin mumbled when taking his boyfriend’s hand to walk by the shore.
“Well... let see the good part of all this”
Jin stayed quiet with a puzzled look upon his face. What could be possibly good in their condition?
“Now I can do this...”, and the younger put his arms around Jin’s waist and kissed his chin when he knew the others weren’t watching them, “And nobody would break us apart”
Jin again stayed in silence there, looking at him with tender eyes... Kame didn’t know how much he could do to make him feel like there was nothing wrong.
Or maybe he did.
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The first "batch" so far, I just have to translate the other one, which was the most difficult drabble in the series :/
I hope you got the feeling and idea of the first four and make some comments about them, thanks a lot~
Comments are really appreciated and will be replied, I promise ;D
Ah! I went through the drabbles over and over again looking for any grammar mistakes and didn't find, so if you've spotted some, please let me know so I can correct it ^^!
Thank you~♥