Two rocks
so i am feeling the pressures of work. it seems like i don't get much of a break during the day in between working and housework. taking a walk is a nice break, and sometimes i am too tired to work after dinner and just hang around and watch movies with eros or read. but i have so much i want to get done and i am perpetually behind. i wonder if i will ever feel caught up. i feel guilty if i sit on the couch for more time than it takes to eat. sigh.
quetzal is curled up by my feet. i think he is feeling pretty bad today. he slept next to me all night.
today i made bread, unloaded the dishwasher, did a bunch of laundry. i also had one massage session and i finished two columns and started my third and final one for this month. i did the DIY BDSM one about leatherworking -- which i know nothing about. so i spent quite a bit of time doing some online research. it almost made me want to try out leatherworking myself -- but i fear i have WAY too many other craft projects in the queue.
i am having trouble not getting grumpy if eros gets grumpy. some might say that is codependent. i think it is just empathic. sometimes i feel that he is easily made annoyed by things i do or the way i live. but there is not a whole lot i can do. i try to get him to communicate to me if it's something i can change, but often it is not.
he cooked dinner for the first time tonight. we have agreed that each of us will do the grocery shopping and cook every other week. this is a big step for him, because he doesn't really like to cook. he made a tofu stirfy with vegetables and hoisin sauce. it was very good! i was moderately impressed with the frozen stir fry veggie mix he used. i usually use fresh veggies, but these were pretty good.
he did cook an elk tri tip that my mom gave us a few nights ago, but he bought Jamaican seasoning at Murphy's and put a lot on, not realizing that it was hot as shit. Not his fault.
he got his van back today. i think they replaced the wheel bearing or something. they made him sign a waiver saying he wouldn't hold them responsible if he drove the van and it broke down. apparently the previous owner just beat the hell out of it and did a lot of bad repairs, so it is basically unsafe. but it's made it this far. we are still planning to take it down to the bay area in a few weeks.
i took this sunset picture at moonstone beach in trinidad last week. eros went with me and waited while i took pictures. he was pretty grumpy by the end. perhaps next time i take photos i should go alone. it's not really fair to ask someone to hang out for that long in the gathering darkness and chill.
things i am grateful for today:
-eros' yummy dinner
-eros cleaning the big dishes
-washing machines. thank god i don't have to wash everything by hand. believe me, i've seen how that works. my mom used to wash clothes by hand on occasion. it sucks.
-a session that helped with the electric bill
-eros still having a working car
-nice beach photos
quetzal is curled up by my feet. i think he is feeling pretty bad today. he slept next to me all night.
today i made bread, unloaded the dishwasher, did a bunch of laundry. i also had one massage session and i finished two columns and started my third and final one for this month. i did the DIY BDSM one about leatherworking -- which i know nothing about. so i spent quite a bit of time doing some online research. it almost made me want to try out leatherworking myself -- but i fear i have WAY too many other craft projects in the queue.
i am having trouble not getting grumpy if eros gets grumpy. some might say that is codependent. i think it is just empathic. sometimes i feel that he is easily made annoyed by things i do or the way i live. but there is not a whole lot i can do. i try to get him to communicate to me if it's something i can change, but often it is not.
he cooked dinner for the first time tonight. we have agreed that each of us will do the grocery shopping and cook every other week. this is a big step for him, because he doesn't really like to cook. he made a tofu stirfy with vegetables and hoisin sauce. it was very good! i was moderately impressed with the frozen stir fry veggie mix he used. i usually use fresh veggies, but these were pretty good.
he did cook an elk tri tip that my mom gave us a few nights ago, but he bought Jamaican seasoning at Murphy's and put a lot on, not realizing that it was hot as shit. Not his fault.
he got his van back today. i think they replaced the wheel bearing or something. they made him sign a waiver saying he wouldn't hold them responsible if he drove the van and it broke down. apparently the previous owner just beat the hell out of it and did a lot of bad repairs, so it is basically unsafe. but it's made it this far. we are still planning to take it down to the bay area in a few weeks.
i took this sunset picture at moonstone beach in trinidad last week. eros went with me and waited while i took pictures. he was pretty grumpy by the end. perhaps next time i take photos i should go alone. it's not really fair to ask someone to hang out for that long in the gathering darkness and chill.
things i am grateful for today:
-eros' yummy dinner
-eros cleaning the big dishes
-washing machines. thank god i don't have to wash everything by hand. believe me, i've seen how that works. my mom used to wash clothes by hand on occasion. it sucks.
-a session that helped with the electric bill
-eros still having a working car
-nice beach photos