what i learned this week~

[bluelyra]

i learned that i get into some people waaay too fast and end up getting either shut out or shut down. so... no more of that for me and there's definitely been more affirmation as to why i'm still single. (and twhile i wish that i wasn't, i guess this is how it has to be for now) it's mostly cuz i really can't say that i know anyone who treats me the way i want to be treated, but more importantly, i don't know any guy (even my close guy friends!) who respect me as much as i'd like. sometimes, i feel like i get treated like a bimbo and that bugs cuz i'm not one! other times, i feel like i get taken advantage of but i don't know how to stop it cuz i think that maybe i'm really helping them out. so i've basically been digging myself into this hole... and i can't get out. people say that my standards are too high; but i think chivalry and old fashioned respect are just dead and gone. i don't demand a lot from guys. i just don't like to get played with. now, is that too much to ask for?

on to less depressing things... christmas fantasia starts tomorrow morning with chapel. i guess it'll be good. we're gonna look like crap next to concert choir, but sadly, i'm getting used to that. whatever. i think that for a women's chorus we're doing pretty well. and that's what matters.

::home in 11 days!::