WDIDT?
Tuesday 2/22 - Thursday 2/24:
Was down in Delaware, visiting my Dad, who I hadn't seen since before Christmas - so that was good. Unfortunately not a lot of opportunity for working out, but I did still manage to squat while I brushed my teeth. Also, had the dog with me, so Bodhi and I went on some nice, extra-long, walks, and went more frequently, also.
Friday, 2/25/11: PRACTICE DAY.
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:sigh:
Okay, actual, crappy, negative sentiments are small, ENFORCED POSITIVITY BE POSITIVE DAMNIT is in bold caps:
I wasn't feelin' it today, because it was rainy and dark and gross out...but I AM PROUD OF MYSELF BECAUSE I PUT ON MY SKATE MIX, AND GOT THE ENERGY TO SUIT UP AND GET IN THE CAR AND HEAD DOWN THERE FOR A WORK OUT. I got there and strapped up, hit the rink to warm up...we started by doing calisthenics like usual, which I could barely freakin' do, if at all. But I'M PROUD OF MYSELF BECAUSE AT LEAST I TRIED ALL OF THEM, AND DIDN'T GIVE UP. Then we started working on pack drills - and of course, I'm the slowest one in the pack. BUT ALL MY DERBY SISTERS HELPED ME, AND ENCOURAGED ME, AND AGAIN, I DIDN'T GIVE UP. And of course, I got pulled from the pack to go skate in the corner. ...I GOT NOTHIN'.
In the corner, we worked on some basic skills like T-stops, but we also worked on things I suck at, like Toe Run Starts, Duck Runs, Reversals. I was so incredibly frustrated BUT AT LEAST I WAS BEING CHALLENGED. The only HIGHLIGHT OF CORNER TIME WAS THAT I FINALLY MANAGED TO NAIL MY OPPOSITE-DIRECTION CROSSOVERS!
So...trying really really hard to feel good about how practice went, but I feel like unless I start pushing myself to skate as long, as hard, and as fast as I can, my speed and endurance are just never going to get better sitting in the corner. Plus, it was so irritating to see skaters who are total Fresh Meat doing reversals and toe runs like it's nothing, and I'm falling all over the place. As far as the toe runs go: look - I am almost 300 pounds of skater, okay? You can not launch 300 pounds of skater off a one-inch square toe-stop...especially a hard plastic one that just slips right off that dusty sport court. As far as the reversals go, I have no freakin' excuse, and no freakin' clue why this is so impossible for me to figure out. >.<
AGH. I am so freaking down on myself and really hating myself for falling short.
On the other hand, TONIGHT IS THE NIGHT I DID MY FIRST OPPOSITE DIRECTION CROSSOVERS, SO I LEARNED SOMETHING NEW TODAY, AND I'M A BETTER SKATER NOW THAN I WAS BEFORE I WENT TO PRACTICE.
I guess it's hard to remember that I'M AWESOMER THAN ALL THE PEOPLE WHO THOUGHT, "HEY, THAT'D BE COOL TO DO ROLLER DERBY" BUT NEVER GOT THE NADS UP TO TRY IT. AND I'M AWESOMER THAN ALL THE PEOPLE WHO TRIED IT AND SAID, "NAH, THIS IS KINDA HARD, I QUIT." AND I'M AWESOMER THAN THE NEGATIVE PEOPLE WHO AREN'T EVEN TRYING TO BE POSITIVE, WHO JUST WANT TO BITCH AND BRING PEOPLE DOWN AND LET THEIR FRUSTRATION TAKE THE FUN OUT OF IT.
Yeah. That's my story, and I'm sticking to it. :P I might even believe it eventually.
I guess the other thing to remember is that I want to be doing roller derby for the rest of my life, right? Soooo...what hurry am I in? It's supposed to be fun, right? So, ANY TIME I GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO PUT MY GEAR ON, GO TO THE RINK, GET SWEATY, LEARN SOMETHING NEW, AND HAVE FUN SKATING, IS A VERY SUCCESSFUL PRACTICE, BECAUSE I LEAVE THE PRACTICE A BETTER SKATER THAN I ARRIVED, AND BECAUSE I HAD FUN.
Again. Repeat, repeat, repeat, until this becomes my primary belief structure. o.0
As an interesting exercise, here's what the above blog entry would have read like with only the positive statements:
"I am proud of myself, because I put on my skate mix, and got the energy to suit up and get in the car and head down there for a work out. I'm proud of myself because at least I tried all the calisthenics, and didn't give up. All my derby sisters helped me, and encouraged me, and again, I didn't give up. We worked on Toe Run Starts, Duck Runs, and Reverals. I was being challenged. Highlight of corner time was that I finally managed to nail my opposite-direction crossovers! Tonight is the night I did my first opposite direction crossovers, so I learned something new today, and I'm a better skater now than I was before I went to practice. I'm awesomer than all the people who thought "Hey, that'd be cool to do roller derby" but never got the nads up to try it. And I'm awesomer than all the people who tried it and said, "Nah, thi sis kinda hard, I quit." And I'm awesomer than the negative people who aren't even trying to be positive, who just want to bitch and bring people down and let their frustration take the fun out of it. Any time I get the opportunity to put my gear on, go to the rink, get sweaty, learn something new, and have fun skating, is a very successful practice, because I leave the practice a better skater than I arrived, and because I had fun."
Hmm. o.0 Interesting...
Was down in Delaware, visiting my Dad, who I hadn't seen since before Christmas - so that was good. Unfortunately not a lot of opportunity for working out, but I did still manage to squat while I brushed my teeth. Also, had the dog with me, so Bodhi and I went on some nice, extra-long, walks, and went more frequently, also.
Friday, 2/25/11: PRACTICE DAY.
...
:sigh:
Okay, actual, crappy, negative sentiments are small, ENFORCED POSITIVITY BE POSITIVE DAMNIT is in bold caps:
I wasn't feelin' it today, because it was rainy and dark and gross out...but I AM PROUD OF MYSELF BECAUSE I PUT ON MY SKATE MIX, AND GOT THE ENERGY TO SUIT UP AND GET IN THE CAR AND HEAD DOWN THERE FOR A WORK OUT. I got there and strapped up, hit the rink to warm up...we started by doing calisthenics like usual, which I could barely freakin' do, if at all. But I'M PROUD OF MYSELF BECAUSE AT LEAST I TRIED ALL OF THEM, AND DIDN'T GIVE UP. Then we started working on pack drills - and of course, I'm the slowest one in the pack. BUT ALL MY DERBY SISTERS HELPED ME, AND ENCOURAGED ME, AND AGAIN, I DIDN'T GIVE UP. And of course, I got pulled from the pack to go skate in the corner. ...I GOT NOTHIN'.
In the corner, we worked on some basic skills like T-stops, but we also worked on things I suck at, like Toe Run Starts, Duck Runs, Reversals. I was so incredibly frustrated BUT AT LEAST I WAS BEING CHALLENGED. The only HIGHLIGHT OF CORNER TIME WAS THAT I FINALLY MANAGED TO NAIL MY OPPOSITE-DIRECTION CROSSOVERS!
So...trying really really hard to feel good about how practice went, but I feel like unless I start pushing myself to skate as long, as hard, and as fast as I can, my speed and endurance are just never going to get better sitting in the corner. Plus, it was so irritating to see skaters who are total Fresh Meat doing reversals and toe runs like it's nothing, and I'm falling all over the place. As far as the toe runs go: look - I am almost 300 pounds of skater, okay? You can not launch 300 pounds of skater off a one-inch square toe-stop...especially a hard plastic one that just slips right off that dusty sport court. As far as the reversals go, I have no freakin' excuse, and no freakin' clue why this is so impossible for me to figure out. >.<
AGH. I am so freaking down on myself and really hating myself for falling short.
On the other hand, TONIGHT IS THE NIGHT I DID MY FIRST OPPOSITE DIRECTION CROSSOVERS, SO I LEARNED SOMETHING NEW TODAY, AND I'M A BETTER SKATER NOW THAN I WAS BEFORE I WENT TO PRACTICE.
I guess it's hard to remember that I'M AWESOMER THAN ALL THE PEOPLE WHO THOUGHT, "HEY, THAT'D BE COOL TO DO ROLLER DERBY" BUT NEVER GOT THE NADS UP TO TRY IT. AND I'M AWESOMER THAN ALL THE PEOPLE WHO TRIED IT AND SAID, "NAH, THIS IS KINDA HARD, I QUIT." AND I'M AWESOMER THAN THE NEGATIVE PEOPLE WHO AREN'T EVEN TRYING TO BE POSITIVE, WHO JUST WANT TO BITCH AND BRING PEOPLE DOWN AND LET THEIR FRUSTRATION TAKE THE FUN OUT OF IT.
Yeah. That's my story, and I'm sticking to it. :P I might even believe it eventually.
I guess the other thing to remember is that I want to be doing roller derby for the rest of my life, right? Soooo...what hurry am I in? It's supposed to be fun, right? So, ANY TIME I GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO PUT MY GEAR ON, GO TO THE RINK, GET SWEATY, LEARN SOMETHING NEW, AND HAVE FUN SKATING, IS A VERY SUCCESSFUL PRACTICE, BECAUSE I LEAVE THE PRACTICE A BETTER SKATER THAN I ARRIVED, AND BECAUSE I HAD FUN.
Again. Repeat, repeat, repeat, until this becomes my primary belief structure. o.0
As an interesting exercise, here's what the above blog entry would have read like with only the positive statements:
"I am proud of myself, because I put on my skate mix, and got the energy to suit up and get in the car and head down there for a work out. I'm proud of myself because at least I tried all the calisthenics, and didn't give up. All my derby sisters helped me, and encouraged me, and again, I didn't give up. We worked on Toe Run Starts, Duck Runs, and Reverals. I was being challenged. Highlight of corner time was that I finally managed to nail my opposite-direction crossovers! Tonight is the night I did my first opposite direction crossovers, so I learned something new today, and I'm a better skater now than I was before I went to practice. I'm awesomer than all the people who thought "Hey, that'd be cool to do roller derby" but never got the nads up to try it. And I'm awesomer than all the people who tried it and said, "Nah, thi sis kinda hard, I quit." And I'm awesomer than the negative people who aren't even trying to be positive, who just want to bitch and bring people down and let their frustration take the fun out of it. Any time I get the opportunity to put my gear on, go to the rink, get sweaty, learn something new, and have fun skating, is a very successful practice, because I leave the practice a better skater than I arrived, and because I had fun."
Hmm. o.0 Interesting...