Of Rekindlings and Endings; Also the road to new beginnings
Epic title huh?
Moving on. So much to write about, but as usual, difficulty figuring out how. As most would say - begin at the beginning. (Not to be confused with the 'new beginnings', mind you)
Let's start with a recap of the last week. Well, the good parts. Friday night I ended up meeting Andi and Josh at the dorm. I'd not seen them in ages. The dorm had its familiar scent, which as strange as it might sound, I have to admit I'd missed these past two years. Being seniors, pretty much everyone I'd known was gone...the hallways full of new people with new ideas. I could still remember, and picture the people I'd known in the familiar hallways. I remembered the good times had there. I tried to leave these thoughts in the back of my mind though.
The three of us found Dave S., then got in Andi's car and headed to Das Dutch Haus to meet up with Charlie. Incredibly long line, but good food as usual. Though the waitress did forget the butter for our bread, but meh. After discussing the Dominion, we headed back to Charlie's so he could drop off his car. We picked him up and brought him back to the dorm. We saw Josh H. and Bob M. as well, and talked with them. Once it had gotten later, we headed over to Dave G's for a bonfire. There was a somewhat small crowd there, some of us from the dorm, others that knew Dave in high school. We made s'mores, a few made hot dogs, many drank. Andi and I found one of his cats and entertained it most of the evening while catching up. Charlie entertained Dave's dog. At the end of the evening, I took Charlie home then went home myself.
This past monday, I headed over to Darcy's apartment after my final. She was cooking, Steve was playing Armada and eating animal cookies. Shortly after that, Becky showed up with the Blackberry Brandy. She helped Darcy with the cooking, while Matt and Brett showed up. The blackberry brandy was used in the ice cream brandy punch (seemed more like an alcoholic milkshake with an egg to me, but it was good). We also had garlic bread, vegetable lasagna, and fettucini alfredo. Actually I think it was angel hair spaghetti and alfredo, but meh. We topped it off with some chocolate pie and vanilla ice cream.
The real kicker was the hours spent reminiscing about our years at YSU - in classes, in the dorm, etc. We had a lot of good times there. Certainly some of the best times I can remember. The people, the movie nights, the random kidnappings, quotes from classes, how we met.. All for memories now.
So thus it has ended, my schooling years (yes, yes, all you technical people, it is possible I'll take other classes or go for a higher degree at some point, but for now, for me, this is the end of a long road of consecutive years of schooling). It was a long road, both good and bad.
Getting into the Scholars program and living in the dorm those two years were probably some of the best things that could've happened to me. I met some great people and we had some great times. I'll cherish those memories. The only thing I wish I could change would be losing that scholarship. When I lost that, I also felt I lost a lot of good friends. They didn't totally leave, but I didn't see them anymore and we never really talked. If I'd been in the dorms, I'm rather sure that wouldn't be the case. In truth, when I lost my scholarship, I felt like an outsider, like I didn't belong there in the dorm or with them. I tried to kid myself for about a half a semester, but after many evenings where I just went to the computer lab or sat and read a book because everyone else had their room to go to and other things to do, I stopped going. That was when I really felt like I didn't belong there and wasn't really wanted. It was also difficult remembering the great times I'd had before and no longer being a part of them.
I more or less tried to put those kind of thoughts out of my mind. Instead, I tried to become better friends with those in my major, who I had more classes with. It was a pretty good idea and worked for a time, but I think deep down I still missed the friends I'd made in the dorm. During our last year, however, our 'EE group' somewhat drifted apart anyway. No more hanging out really, just people to chat with at school. The real kicker was during Senior Design though. Other than my last boyfriend, I don't think I've ever been that wrong about people. Promising to give me money to put towards the rather huge amount on my credit card and never doing it, trying to tell the prof that I didn't do as much as I actually did, not telling me anything about the final report or wrapping up the project, etc. I certainly don't consider them friends anymore.
Once May 20th rolls around, I'll consider that chapter of my life closed. Not totally closed, mind you. I'd still like to keep in touch with people, especially some of the ones I met in the dorm (or as a result of someone else who lived in the dorm). After getting a chance to somewhat rekindle some old friendships in the past week, I hope to keep those more like current friendships. Time will tell I suppose.
So, what's next? A few more headaches on the way to the real world. Finally got official acceptance for my new apartment in Willoughby, Ohio. (Check out http://kersare.net/ApartmentPics - the floorplan is right, the pics aren't exactly right...same layout, but slightly different bathroom, different closet doors, different light fixtures, and different carpet) Have Directv ordered, ordering comcast (yay! internet that isn't dial-up!!), calling the electric company... Still have to figure out banking and insurance. Those I'll talk with Tony about though, as we'll want to do those at the same place. Also will be picking out some paint (Tony hates all white walls, and I sorta have to agree), sorting, packing, getting his cats to the vet.... Still finding furniture...have to rent moving trucks. Oy, what a list. Less than a month to do it too. New job starts in a month...
Saturday I'll be flying to Nashville to be with Tony for about a week - meeting some of his friends and his mom and the cats, of course. Then flying back here for my graduation (which is followed with my brother's graduation the next day). Potentially going to Gettysburg for 3 days, then coming back so we have a bit of time for random things and then Ashley and Jon's wedding. Take Tony to the airport, then have less than a week to finish packing and move.
Interesting times ahead....
Moving on. So much to write about, but as usual, difficulty figuring out how. As most would say - begin at the beginning. (Not to be confused with the 'new beginnings', mind you)
Let's start with a recap of the last week. Well, the good parts. Friday night I ended up meeting Andi and Josh at the dorm. I'd not seen them in ages. The dorm had its familiar scent, which as strange as it might sound, I have to admit I'd missed these past two years. Being seniors, pretty much everyone I'd known was gone...the hallways full of new people with new ideas. I could still remember, and picture the people I'd known in the familiar hallways. I remembered the good times had there. I tried to leave these thoughts in the back of my mind though.
The three of us found Dave S., then got in Andi's car and headed to Das Dutch Haus to meet up with Charlie. Incredibly long line, but good food as usual. Though the waitress did forget the butter for our bread, but meh. After discussing the Dominion, we headed back to Charlie's so he could drop off his car. We picked him up and brought him back to the dorm. We saw Josh H. and Bob M. as well, and talked with them. Once it had gotten later, we headed over to Dave G's for a bonfire. There was a somewhat small crowd there, some of us from the dorm, others that knew Dave in high school. We made s'mores, a few made hot dogs, many drank. Andi and I found one of his cats and entertained it most of the evening while catching up. Charlie entertained Dave's dog. At the end of the evening, I took Charlie home then went home myself.
This past monday, I headed over to Darcy's apartment after my final. She was cooking, Steve was playing Armada and eating animal cookies. Shortly after that, Becky showed up with the Blackberry Brandy. She helped Darcy with the cooking, while Matt and Brett showed up. The blackberry brandy was used in the ice cream brandy punch (seemed more like an alcoholic milkshake with an egg to me, but it was good). We also had garlic bread, vegetable lasagna, and fettucini alfredo. Actually I think it was angel hair spaghetti and alfredo, but meh. We topped it off with some chocolate pie and vanilla ice cream.
The real kicker was the hours spent reminiscing about our years at YSU - in classes, in the dorm, etc. We had a lot of good times there. Certainly some of the best times I can remember. The people, the movie nights, the random kidnappings, quotes from classes, how we met.. All for memories now.
So thus it has ended, my schooling years (yes, yes, all you technical people, it is possible I'll take other classes or go for a higher degree at some point, but for now, for me, this is the end of a long road of consecutive years of schooling). It was a long road, both good and bad.
Getting into the Scholars program and living in the dorm those two years were probably some of the best things that could've happened to me. I met some great people and we had some great times. I'll cherish those memories. The only thing I wish I could change would be losing that scholarship. When I lost that, I also felt I lost a lot of good friends. They didn't totally leave, but I didn't see them anymore and we never really talked. If I'd been in the dorms, I'm rather sure that wouldn't be the case. In truth, when I lost my scholarship, I felt like an outsider, like I didn't belong there in the dorm or with them. I tried to kid myself for about a half a semester, but after many evenings where I just went to the computer lab or sat and read a book because everyone else had their room to go to and other things to do, I stopped going. That was when I really felt like I didn't belong there and wasn't really wanted. It was also difficult remembering the great times I'd had before and no longer being a part of them.
I more or less tried to put those kind of thoughts out of my mind. Instead, I tried to become better friends with those in my major, who I had more classes with. It was a pretty good idea and worked for a time, but I think deep down I still missed the friends I'd made in the dorm. During our last year, however, our 'EE group' somewhat drifted apart anyway. No more hanging out really, just people to chat with at school. The real kicker was during Senior Design though. Other than my last boyfriend, I don't think I've ever been that wrong about people. Promising to give me money to put towards the rather huge amount on my credit card and never doing it, trying to tell the prof that I didn't do as much as I actually did, not telling me anything about the final report or wrapping up the project, etc. I certainly don't consider them friends anymore.
Once May 20th rolls around, I'll consider that chapter of my life closed. Not totally closed, mind you. I'd still like to keep in touch with people, especially some of the ones I met in the dorm (or as a result of someone else who lived in the dorm). After getting a chance to somewhat rekindle some old friendships in the past week, I hope to keep those more like current friendships. Time will tell I suppose.
So, what's next? A few more headaches on the way to the real world. Finally got official acceptance for my new apartment in Willoughby, Ohio. (Check out http://kersare.net/ApartmentPics - the floorplan is right, the pics aren't exactly right...same layout, but slightly different bathroom, different closet doors, different light fixtures, and different carpet) Have Directv ordered, ordering comcast (yay! internet that isn't dial-up!!), calling the electric company... Still have to figure out banking and insurance. Those I'll talk with Tony about though, as we'll want to do those at the same place. Also will be picking out some paint (Tony hates all white walls, and I sorta have to agree), sorting, packing, getting his cats to the vet.... Still finding furniture...have to rent moving trucks. Oy, what a list. Less than a month to do it too. New job starts in a month...
Saturday I'll be flying to Nashville to be with Tony for about a week - meeting some of his friends and his mom and the cats, of course. Then flying back here for my graduation (which is followed with my brother's graduation the next day). Potentially going to Gettysburg for 3 days, then coming back so we have a bit of time for random things and then Ashley and Jon's wedding. Take Tony to the airport, then have less than a week to finish packing and move.
Interesting times ahead....