If I'm being paranoid I'll feel stupid but probably relieved
Ok I definitely read something that has me really worried the person was talking about me. Given that I tend to jump to conclusions and have an over active imagination and sometimes assume the worse, I could be wrong... I seriously hope that I am because if I'm not then when I thought things were getting better with someone they just got worse. I am a stupid, stupid individual for opening my mouth sometimes I really am. Pleas God let it not be about me because if it is this sucks so incredibly badly. I really hope that if it is about me I can straighten things out with this person. I don't want them to see me that way at all, I mean that's my friend and holy shit... what person looks at their friend like that? Idk if I should think I seriously messed up or if I should be like hey it's a misunderstanding, neither of you did anything wrong except for not really understand what the other person was thinking/saying. I know I'm going to feel so stupid if I'm just being paranoid and it's not about me at all but what they said would totally fit the whole situation. Although with me it would only have to somewhat fit the situation and my imagination would fill in the rest. Well on the plus side this has me worked up enough that I'm no longer tired and I can stay up long enough to finish my paper. It definitely didn't turn out to be 10 pages. I seriously tried but there isn't that much information on nebulae, especially supernova remnants. Idk I at least got 7 pages not including the cover page and bibliography although I only have internet sources but I have a lot of sources... so at this point it's a toss up. If this was r u high u'd just have to bring the teacher cookies and they'd be like hey 7 pages excellent. I was going to say sometimes I miss that place but I definitely don't. I do miss home so much though. While I'll be bummed if I don't get a job on campus I wont be too upset cause it would mean I get to spend the whole summer at home. Man I want to be home right now. What with the whole thing going on with my extended family, I really want to be at home. Actually I want us all to be in NY, me, mom, Casey, dad, and mom's whole side. Although I wouldn't know what to do, hug my cousins in my uncle, be like hey this sucks I'm sorry or just give them space. I'm not good with situations like this. Stupid situations. Ugh back to my paper I guess, no point in failing it because I didn't do the bibliographpy. It would have made skipping out on fun and sleep to work on it pointless.