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So the guys came up from VT last night. Unfortunately Derek couldn't come cause his truck broke down at work I guess. Everyone was really bummed about that. I really didn't like last night at all. It was acward before it even began pretty much. I kinda knew it would be though. I yelled at Dan a couple days ago because he's such an ass but I didn't tell him they couldn't come up because I wanted people to come up for a change of pace and everyone wanted Derek to come and Andrea seemed to be hitting it off with Dan. So when they got here we didn't really interact at all and they all slept in Emily and Andrea's room and 1 guy left last night and he said goodbye but the other 2 left just after 10 this morning and they definitely didn't. I don't know why that bugs me but it does. I'm well aware of the fact that I'm partly to blame but Dan did the same thing last time he came up and I hadn't yelled at him then. Why has it taken me this long just to be done with him? It should have happened a long time ago. I feel so stupid for giving him so many chances considering what he's done to me. It also pissed me off that everyone thought he was so nice and cool and I'm like noooo he's an asshole you have no idea. But I thought he was nice and cool too at at one point so I guess I'm not one to talk. The guy has really only ever made me feel like shit and that I wasn't good enough or something, I should have just kicked him in the nuts when I met him. But they've all done it at one point or another. At some point it makes you wonder how much you really do suck if so many people seem to think you do. I need to go shower before brunch so I'm out.