..Cry..
Time for another one of my updates...
Once again..life amazes me..I mean..i didnt think I could cry so much over one person..a person i didnt really know..but hey, what do you expect..I have a big heart. :) But thats not the point..Just.. being at school, didnt help it anymore..I mean, seeing the picture..reading the articles..just built up inside me..and i didnt let it out until I got home..me and Chelo just went in my room, turned on the song..and just busted out in tears..its heartbreaking knowing that Roberto died so young..he really was a nice, caring person, who didnt deserve this..he deserved to live his life out, long and happy...not a shirt life, ending in a car accident because of some drunk driver..((damn all you drunkies)) I mean, me and Chelo were crying so bad ((we werent even crying as BAD as we really could..we tried holding it in)), that we had to go to Lori's and talk to her about it, and we were just crying away over there too, and Lori almost started crying with us too..she got all teary eye, and she had the sound in her voice, as if she was gonna just...let it out.
*Prayer* God..All I can say is..PLEASE..I say this with all my heart...do not let anyone else get hurt..I dont think anyone could take anymore..I know i cant..just..please...no more pain..for anyone..Amen~
Well...I dont know what to say anymore...I sit here and cry over him...and I look over..and there are 3 dead fish...and there is a dead fish out in the pond...why are things all of a sudden dying now.. I dont want no more endless crying..I just want smiles and happiness..i dont wanna get older and have to tell my kids, I spent my teen years crying everday, with no happiness...Roberto was a good person...and knowing that he is gone..just makes me sad all the time..I cant be happy..I picture everything in my head..which just makes me break down..the picture..just imagining it..the picture i have in my head..of when I was in Resource, and Roberto sat 2 row over..and he alwayz had a funny thing ta talk about..him, Russell..and Ryan..some other people..ok i am now just busting out in tears..I can picture him smiling..him laughing..and now knowing..I can never see that again..just tears me up inside..im gonna just stop now..before I just break down..
~ WiTh LoTs Of LoVe * MaNdY ~