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Even though last night I promised myself I wouldnt do it, I still went in line for front row for Hanson. SCC kicked us out and gave us tickets to save our spots...I'm 10th in line for tomorrow night. Woot.
Aside from that, I'm feeling kind of blah. I have been reading all the "I'm going to school soon" entries and I keep getting ims from people with "Are you ready for school?" and "Arent you excited?"
The answer is quite simple to me:
No.
I thought about it during the whole 20 minute ride home today and the extra 30 minutes I was stuck in traffic on the Cross Valley. I dont want to be a Valley person my whole life, I've never wanted that for myself. I just dont know if I'm ready to make the alternate life that all college kids say they have: two sets of friends, two different lifestyles, two jobs, two "families." And, yes, I'm terribly scared to leave him too because I've had one of the greatest summers just doing regular things and not having that "I constantly need to be entertained" feeling that I had the past few years.
I'm such a loser because I dont like thinking or talking about it because it just makes me feel worse. I dont know how long I sat while he was asleep just trying not to cry because I'm going to miss it.
Anyway. Beginning August 28, I'm going on Friends Only while I'm at school. It's better to keep some thoughts and things secret from eyes in the Valley.
Aside from that, I'm feeling kind of blah. I have been reading all the "I'm going to school soon" entries and I keep getting ims from people with "Are you ready for school?" and "Arent you excited?"
The answer is quite simple to me:
No.
I thought about it during the whole 20 minute ride home today and the extra 30 minutes I was stuck in traffic on the Cross Valley. I dont want to be a Valley person my whole life, I've never wanted that for myself. I just dont know if I'm ready to make the alternate life that all college kids say they have: two sets of friends, two different lifestyles, two jobs, two "families." And, yes, I'm terribly scared to leave him too because I've had one of the greatest summers just doing regular things and not having that "I constantly need to be entertained" feeling that I had the past few years.
I'm such a loser because I dont like thinking or talking about it because it just makes me feel worse. I dont know how long I sat while he was asleep just trying not to cry because I'm going to miss it.
Anyway. Beginning August 28, I'm going on Friends Only while I'm at school. It's better to keep some thoughts and things secret from eyes in the Valley.