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So I guess this is that time of year where everything you've planned for 12 years ends. Just boom. College. So here I am. Thinking about it. I'm going to UF. Not really because I'm determined to get there. I just never thought of any other choice. I'm pretty sure I'll get in. Not positive, but I think if i work hard for the next few months I think I can do it. Everyone else sure thinks I can. If not, I go to Santa Fe Community College for 2 years and then transfer to UF. Simple plan I think. So now that the descion has been made maybe I should go over the reasons why. I guess that might be important. My number one reason is the one I totally regret. Because Kenny will be there. I've become the girls I always looked down upon. The kind of girls that follow their boyfriends to college, or the ones that just end up pregnant and barefoot because they feel they aren't good at anything else. I've always wanted to support myself and live on my own and make my own decisions. Travel to europe, get drunk, party, meet hot guys and just have fun. It's a huge sacrifice. One I'm not sure I want to make. Don't get me wrong, if I lost him I'd be miserable not matter how many party or hot guys I was subjected to. I guess I'm just trying to weigh which is more important to me. What can I stand to loose. I don;t want to say I haven;t figured it out yet. But I haven't. It always eats at me, now that he's not around. What I could do if I wasn't with him. It's a double sided sword. On one hand I can be free and miserable. On the other hand I sacrifice the life of a partying college student and having a great relationship that I'll probably never have again, and although tough at times, I love it. I have no idea what to do with myself.
Wow. That shit was deep. Oh yea! I'm trying out for soccer. Wish me luck.
Wow. That shit was deep. Oh yea! I'm trying out for soccer. Wish me luck.