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This was one of my limited weekends off, but i worked half the day friday and the whole day saturday. WHich turned out pretty great because i got to spend some time with holly saturday night and most of sunday. It was fun for me..just getting to relax and talk with her.
Sometimes i get the idea though maybe im not fun to be around that much. I mean angleton has nothing to offer in the way of entertainment, and neither does lake jackson, and i hate for her to do all that driving to houston or pearland when she has to drive all the way down here and then back.
I miss him and I can't stand it....
My week on the East coast was to short but spectacular. It really does depend on who your with and what makes it so great. I know sometimes he thought i wasn't have a good time, because i was kinda quiet, but i was trying to take it all in, and make memories in my head, things i wouldn't forget, even if they were small and meaningless to most. I have only been back here for 6 days....and everyday seems harder and harder to wake up to. I love getting in bed with him, kissing him....*sigh*
I hate not being able to be around him...hug..kiss or touch him whenever i want to.
Every night before i go to sleep..i think about our last night together...he was touching my face..and running his fingers through my hair...wiping away my tears because i was crying..like a dummy
i have tears in my eyes now thinking about it like i do most every night.
It is so odd sometimes because it feels like i should have always loved him...sometimes i wonder if it's possible if i could have found my soulmate? I know alot of people think that is ridiculous, or roll their eyes, but i have always believed that it exsisted somewhere even if it weren't for me to find one. I have never felt like that about anybody else....
Leaving the car and his hug at the airport felt like somebody was crushing my chest...i really thought i was going to throw up on the plane..and i just wanted to get off of it...i felt like i couldn't breath...when i think about that now my breath catches in my chest..and i have to force myself to exhale.
I can't stand this...
Sometimes i get the idea though maybe im not fun to be around that much. I mean angleton has nothing to offer in the way of entertainment, and neither does lake jackson, and i hate for her to do all that driving to houston or pearland when she has to drive all the way down here and then back.
I miss him and I can't stand it....
My week on the East coast was to short but spectacular. It really does depend on who your with and what makes it so great. I know sometimes he thought i wasn't have a good time, because i was kinda quiet, but i was trying to take it all in, and make memories in my head, things i wouldn't forget, even if they were small and meaningless to most. I have only been back here for 6 days....and everyday seems harder and harder to wake up to. I love getting in bed with him, kissing him....*sigh*
I hate not being able to be around him...hug..kiss or touch him whenever i want to.
Every night before i go to sleep..i think about our last night together...he was touching my face..and running his fingers through my hair...wiping away my tears because i was crying..like a dummy
i have tears in my eyes now thinking about it like i do most every night.
It is so odd sometimes because it feels like i should have always loved him...sometimes i wonder if it's possible if i could have found my soulmate? I know alot of people think that is ridiculous, or roll their eyes, but i have always believed that it exsisted somewhere even if it weren't for me to find one. I have never felt like that about anybody else....
Leaving the car and his hug at the airport felt like somebody was crushing my chest...i really thought i was going to throw up on the plane..and i just wanted to get off of it...i felt like i couldn't breath...when i think about that now my breath catches in my chest..and i have to force myself to exhale.
I can't stand this...