Something Rotten
There's something wrong with me.
I am worried that I may be an insomniac of sorts. It's not that I can't get to sleep at night, it's that I don't get much sleep during the night. My schedule usually goes as follows: school or work in the morning followed by an hour or two break in between just to rush back out to work or school and get home around 10PM. By the time I eat dinner and get through with my daily grind, it's about midnite. From midnite until about 2-3am is my relaxing time. I get to sleep about 2:30-3:30am and have to wake up at 8 or 9 the next morning. Now, some may be saying "Six hours?! That's more sleep than I get in any given night" Well, that may be the case, and you may be able to ride out just fine off of 5-6 hours of sleep, but my body hates me because of it. I nearly fall asleep while driving in the mornings, I completely waste away in my classes and leave early just so I can get an extra thirty minute nap in, at work, I still continue to work my ass off, leaving me that much more tired later in the day. Every time I get a day off from work, I usually still have school in the way of relaxing or sleeping in or something else random comes up that keeps me running around, asleep on my feet. I also have this strange...symptom...whenever I don't get 8-10 hours of sleep, or even if I do and I just happen to wake up before...9am, it seems...There is a constant stabbing pain in my stomach that literally brings me to my knees. It almost forced me to take a sick day at work yesterday. It's almost forcing me to get up and leave class right now, but I've already missed entirely too much of my digital print production class and am suffering greatly because of my absences. I got about 10-12 hours of sleep last night (waking up randomly throughout the night, of course) and I am still feeling sick to my stomach. And it's not one of those just eat, vomit, or take a shit and problem solved kinda stomach aches. Sure, I can do any one of the above and have minimum amounts of relief. Although, usually, eating makes it worse. I need to lay off the poptarts and see if that has anything to do with it. LoL
I'm tired of feeling tired. I'm sick of being sick all the time.
I can work or I can go to school. Not both at the same time.
If I quit work, I screw myself.
If I quit school, I screw myself.
Even with only taking two classes a semester, my schedule is still so cluster-fucked that it's no better than going to school full-time and taking 6 or more classes.
Whatever...I won't be surprised when i'm burnt out and suicidal by the time I'm 21.
I am worried that I may be an insomniac of sorts. It's not that I can't get to sleep at night, it's that I don't get much sleep during the night. My schedule usually goes as follows: school or work in the morning followed by an hour or two break in between just to rush back out to work or school and get home around 10PM. By the time I eat dinner and get through with my daily grind, it's about midnite. From midnite until about 2-3am is my relaxing time. I get to sleep about 2:30-3:30am and have to wake up at 8 or 9 the next morning. Now, some may be saying "Six hours?! That's more sleep than I get in any given night" Well, that may be the case, and you may be able to ride out just fine off of 5-6 hours of sleep, but my body hates me because of it. I nearly fall asleep while driving in the mornings, I completely waste away in my classes and leave early just so I can get an extra thirty minute nap in, at work, I still continue to work my ass off, leaving me that much more tired later in the day. Every time I get a day off from work, I usually still have school in the way of relaxing or sleeping in or something else random comes up that keeps me running around, asleep on my feet. I also have this strange...symptom...whenever I don't get 8-10 hours of sleep, or even if I do and I just happen to wake up before...9am, it seems...There is a constant stabbing pain in my stomach that literally brings me to my knees. It almost forced me to take a sick day at work yesterday. It's almost forcing me to get up and leave class right now, but I've already missed entirely too much of my digital print production class and am suffering greatly because of my absences. I got about 10-12 hours of sleep last night (waking up randomly throughout the night, of course) and I am still feeling sick to my stomach. And it's not one of those just eat, vomit, or take a shit and problem solved kinda stomach aches. Sure, I can do any one of the above and have minimum amounts of relief. Although, usually, eating makes it worse. I need to lay off the poptarts and see if that has anything to do with it. LoL
I'm tired of feeling tired. I'm sick of being sick all the time.
I can work or I can go to school. Not both at the same time.
If I quit work, I screw myself.
If I quit school, I screw myself.
Even with only taking two classes a semester, my schedule is still so cluster-fucked that it's no better than going to school full-time and taking 6 or more classes.
Whatever...I won't be surprised when i'm burnt out and suicidal by the time I'm 21.