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I feel like I am holding back, that is all I am doing. the places I try to put in the effort I feel like all I am getting is nothing. I feel like maybe it is holding back from me. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel akward in every situation, I should be writing a paper but instead I am sitting here pondering why...what the fuck is going on or I am doing. I feel so helpless to be the horible reasson for all of this crap. I dont know what I have done but I dont feel like i am making good things happen or that people like me for them.