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i cant do this any more. ive been thinking so hard over the past months to the point where i can no longer take it. im distraught, troubled, lost, desperate and beyond control. this is not what i was meant to do; everything just feels so wrong; i was meant to live for so much more, to quote switchfoot. its not that i cant handle it; its just that my emphasis should be directed at something else, something infinitely more meaningful, but i dont know what it, and thats why it hurts so badly and so deeply. i have never, ever been this upset/distraught/lost in my life. i dont know what to do, where to go, or how to deal right now. were it not for my family and my faith, i dont know what i would do. and i need your help. aim: akdquadman, email: aselvey@bgnet.bgsu.edu, or cell (614)266-2442. help.