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well, well
Today sucked so much, i went to the beach to meet people and like they never should up or even called me.
The day before that sucked to. Cuz i was hang out with this that i like and he was so weriod andlike pushing me away and like when he is not with his friends he is so cool and fun to be with. i dont know what the deal is cuz his friends are cool and they like me so what is the big deal. I he told me that he wants to get to know me more before we do shit but he never asks me anything so yea. Plus he is leaving in dec. something to go in the navy or something and i dont think he want to get in too a serious realationship and end up falling in love and then leaving cuz that would suck. But i know and i just want to see if something is there and if not then just be friends no big deal. I just guess i really want someone to be around and someone who i can be with and who care for me. But really just to be around. i dont like being alone. cuz really all i ever think about when i am alone is all the things i fucked up on. And all the things that went wrong and just the things i could of had and all the shit that happen and all the crap realationships i been in and why i either get the asshole guys or just the ones i cant have.
Now i really feel like i have no reason to stay here. I am so really to move. I have one to stay here for. And i am starting to believe for my friends all they are going to have is their mans. Fuck that. I hope the shit fucks up. I am never going to save her fuck realationship again. rr. Fuck it, she will wait up and realize i am not there. Her fault not mine. i so want to move. I am never going to get far living here. I have nutten here. And nutten here will ever get me where i want to be. But i am not going to blame anyone but my self for the shit i have been in. it is my fault. The only thing i want to go back to school for is to get it over and to start over, all over. No going back to anything. New friends and new beings. I need to wait up and end things with everything. Its going to be hard but i need to start over. And forget get my pass and more. I love you man but i cant do this. i gave my heart to you along time ago and you know that but i need someone to be around not just when you want. And not just to fuck. God man you no i love it but it sucks when your not around and when your the only one for me that i want to be with and F**k. yea. I dont want to be with anyone else. I enjoyed when your around and that we got to spend time together. That is cool. I hope to see you more often. You really make things alright and make things fit back together. I would have lost it if it wasent for you. YOu really keep me grounded.
Thank you, for everthing.
Well see ya'll.
Call me if you anyone want to hang out or go to the beach.
or just talk to me online citten2003
later
Today sucked so much, i went to the beach to meet people and like they never should up or even called me.
The day before that sucked to. Cuz i was hang out with this that i like and he was so weriod andlike pushing me away and like when he is not with his friends he is so cool and fun to be with. i dont know what the deal is cuz his friends are cool and they like me so what is the big deal. I he told me that he wants to get to know me more before we do shit but he never asks me anything so yea. Plus he is leaving in dec. something to go in the navy or something and i dont think he want to get in too a serious realationship and end up falling in love and then leaving cuz that would suck. But i know and i just want to see if something is there and if not then just be friends no big deal. I just guess i really want someone to be around and someone who i can be with and who care for me. But really just to be around. i dont like being alone. cuz really all i ever think about when i am alone is all the things i fucked up on. And all the things that went wrong and just the things i could of had and all the shit that happen and all the crap realationships i been in and why i either get the asshole guys or just the ones i cant have.
Now i really feel like i have no reason to stay here. I am so really to move. I have one to stay here for. And i am starting to believe for my friends all they are going to have is their mans. Fuck that. I hope the shit fucks up. I am never going to save her fuck realationship again. rr. Fuck it, she will wait up and realize i am not there. Her fault not mine. i so want to move. I am never going to get far living here. I have nutten here. And nutten here will ever get me where i want to be. But i am not going to blame anyone but my self for the shit i have been in. it is my fault. The only thing i want to go back to school for is to get it over and to start over, all over. No going back to anything. New friends and new beings. I need to wait up and end things with everything. Its going to be hard but i need to start over. And forget get my pass and more. I love you man but i cant do this. i gave my heart to you along time ago and you know that but i need someone to be around not just when you want. And not just to fuck. God man you no i love it but it sucks when your not around and when your the only one for me that i want to be with and F**k. yea. I dont want to be with anyone else. I enjoyed when your around and that we got to spend time together. That is cool. I hope to see you more often. You really make things alright and make things fit back together. I would have lost it if it wasent for you. YOu really keep me grounded.
Thank you, for everthing.
Well see ya'll.
Call me if you anyone want to hang out or go to the beach.
or just talk to me online citten2003
later