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i feel run down, exausted. All the time. I think my soul has the flu. For the past couple of weeks i have been keeping myself busy leaving me almost no time to spend with myself, and just rest. Not only has this random black hole just suddenly appeared out of know where and starting sucking away, i wonder how much longer i can go on like this, how much longer i'll last. I have dedcaiting myself to this Student Trainer program, where you work as a Athletic Trainer intern would and take care of the athletes and thier injuries, and i think the amout and effort I have put into this thing that has become a normal everyday rutine for me, has alot to do with it. When im training for games, sometimes i dont get home as late as 9:00 o-clock and still have almost nothing to eat. And when i finilly do get home i dont have time because im passed out on my bed, sometimes still in my clothes. The Certified Athletic Trainers who work with us, a male and female, asked me to thier office and to shut the door. I thought they were going to lecture me on why i didnt turn in my eligibility form, and they did. But they were also very concernced about well being. They wanted to know if they should know about anything eles that might be going on with me, that might explain my strange, odd, and saddened behavior. The man we work with said i wasn't being myself, which i thought was alittle odd, because i thought i knew myself. And like anybody eles, i have my anti-social, dont talk to me, i want to be alone and listen to my music with my crappy headphones moods.
For the past couple of weeks i have been getting these massive headaches everyday, some worse than others. Some so bad i feel like im going to hurl, and that my temples were going to explode. Just last friday i had to leave the school early and miss Training for the day because one was so terrible. I felt like it was pushing out of my forehead, and felt dizzy and drunk, hot and sweaty. I thought i was going to faint, so I got permission to walk home. ( i dont live far from school). Thank goodness my mom was parked outside the school because i dont think i could have made another 10 yards. Once i got home i slepted for the rest of the day.
Even when i got home today i immediatly went upstairs to snooze. And still i feel sore, sick to my stomache, and i have no idea why but i want to cry my fucking eyes out. I can't breath, and i feel so low.
What hell is wrong with me?
For the past couple of weeks i have been getting these massive headaches everyday, some worse than others. Some so bad i feel like im going to hurl, and that my temples were going to explode. Just last friday i had to leave the school early and miss Training for the day because one was so terrible. I felt like it was pushing out of my forehead, and felt dizzy and drunk, hot and sweaty. I thought i was going to faint, so I got permission to walk home. ( i dont live far from school). Thank goodness my mom was parked outside the school because i dont think i could have made another 10 yards. Once i got home i slepted for the rest of the day.
Even when i got home today i immediatly went upstairs to snooze. And still i feel sore, sick to my stomache, and i have no idea why but i want to cry my fucking eyes out. I can't breath, and i feel so low.
What hell is wrong with me?