just some thoughts to myself
sometimes i wonder why i look...why i bother. Deep down i know it, and for some reason i always have to prove myself right. then it hurts because i've been lied to. I don't know what to do anymore. It makes ME feel filthy more than anything...just finding it. Then i want to destroy everything that comes withing the reach of my eyes. Why do i even care...it just keeps happening again and again and nothing ever changes. Its past the 3rd strike and it still hasn't stopped...what am i doing wrong?! if it causes so much guilt, why keep doing it?