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so basically i leave for seattle in 2 days then 2 days after i get there, i leave for athens. i hav NEVER been so stressed out in my life. the break at home, hasnt even felt like a break which is really lame. there hasnt been one point where i have been really glad to be home. christmas didnt really feel like christmas, dinner at my aunts wasnt complete because my mom didnt go. things at my house are crazy right now and i dont have time for anything. everyone wants to go places and spend money but they dont realize that i need to pay for everything in the next 6 weeks while im in another country. i want to go out and have fun but i seriously cant. im getting less and less sleep due to my nerves which sucks. i have to get up early tomorrow to go to AAA to get a eurail pass which is going to cost me another $350. i feel like im not going to pack everything that i need, and then again i feel like im not going to be there for enough time. my room is a complete mess. it looks like my closet threw up all over my floor and no matter how hard i try to clean it up, it just doesnt happen. i have spent the whole day trying to do laundry i would say i have successfully done atleast 7 loads today and cleaned up all the christmas crap and vacuumed. things in my house are really weird right now and it doesnt feel like home at all. there is so much tension that shouldnt be here. it makes me sick to my stomach. i wish my room would clean itself. i cant believe a week from now i am going to be in greece. too bad our hotel is so nice. its crazy.i feel like i should be doing something else. i will probably update when i get back in february. have a good rest of your break.