what would you do?

[blueeyedvixen]

what would you do if you loved someone so much but couldn't manage to get the words out? what would you do if you weren't sure you loved them anymore? would you still say i love you? even if your not sure if you mean it everytime you say it? even if it hurts you everytime you say it you think about how much it hurts you and that little ball forms in your throat tightening it? what would you do if you were hurting so bad because of it? would you say something and ruin everyone else's happiness? or would you hold it in and keep it quiet? would you sacrifice your happiness to let others be happy? does it make you a bigger person if you do? or are you weak because of it? do you confront them or do you go on living a lie? should you ever have to live a lie because of someone else, even if you don't want to? would you do it?? would you ever do it to try to keep everyone else happy?

would you? would you go even if you knew that everyone there thought differently of you? would you go even if you knew they knew a lie about you, not the truth?... knowing there was nothing you could do to make them think differently?

would you? well if you wouldn't then what would you do? would you stand up for yourself knowing that you would ruin other peoples happiness? but what if their very happiness was the whole reason you started this all in the first place? to try to keep them from being sad again? would you go back to your happiness knowing you would take away theirs? and chances are not both of you could be happy at the same time?

:::deep thoughts:::