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Today was..retarded, to say the least.
Everything was going wrong with the machine which meant I had tons of plastic to grind up, plus all my fucked up plastic from the past week. My wrists are fucked from cutting up about 60xs more plastic than I normally do. The guy that's replacing me after I quit next week came in to learn how to do everything and everytime I was around he would stare at me. and it wasn't subtle staring either, he'd stop doing whatever he was doing and stare at me. I felt like he was raping and murdering me with his eyes. I hate it when people stare at me. doesn't matter what the reason is. it's creepy. don't do it. PLUS someone shit in the toilet in the shop and didn't flush it. I think it was Jay. he's odd.
I believe I've finally figured out what I want from a guy.
sex.
haha that's it really. sex and a friend. no romance. no complicated emotions. to me, sex is sex. and I need it on a regular basis, hah. no more sleeping with people I don't know either. 50% of the time it turned out not too well due to messy emotions (not on my part) so from now on I'm going to make sure people aren't crazy beforehand, heh.
Also at the moment there isn't anyone that comes even close to giving me the 'googly feeling'. it's extremely rare for me to meet someone that I even find attractive. basically I'm doomed.
::sigh:: I guess I'll just have to stick to daydreaming about Angelina Jolie.
oh my god! speaking of hot people, everyone needs to go see Star Wars! Hayden Christensen is the sexiest man alive! I was literally hyperventilating in the theatre whenever he came on the screen. even now just thinking about I'm breathing heavily. wow.
p.s. My birthday is exactly a month away. I don't care if anyone buys me anything. I stopped expecting presents ever since my 17th bday when the present from my bestfriend at the time was a sip of her 40, haha whatta fuckin bitch. Just hang out with me. Drink with me. Laugh at me when I black out at hump things. I just wanna have fun with the people I care about.
Everything was going wrong with the machine which meant I had tons of plastic to grind up, plus all my fucked up plastic from the past week. My wrists are fucked from cutting up about 60xs more plastic than I normally do. The guy that's replacing me after I quit next week came in to learn how to do everything and everytime I was around he would stare at me. and it wasn't subtle staring either, he'd stop doing whatever he was doing and stare at me. I felt like he was raping and murdering me with his eyes. I hate it when people stare at me. doesn't matter what the reason is. it's creepy. don't do it. PLUS someone shit in the toilet in the shop and didn't flush it. I think it was Jay. he's odd.
I believe I've finally figured out what I want from a guy.
sex.
haha that's it really. sex and a friend. no romance. no complicated emotions. to me, sex is sex. and I need it on a regular basis, hah. no more sleeping with people I don't know either. 50% of the time it turned out not too well due to messy emotions (not on my part) so from now on I'm going to make sure people aren't crazy beforehand, heh.
Also at the moment there isn't anyone that comes even close to giving me the 'googly feeling'. it's extremely rare for me to meet someone that I even find attractive. basically I'm doomed.
::sigh:: I guess I'll just have to stick to daydreaming about Angelina Jolie.
oh my god! speaking of hot people, everyone needs to go see Star Wars! Hayden Christensen is the sexiest man alive! I was literally hyperventilating in the theatre whenever he came on the screen. even now just thinking about I'm breathing heavily. wow.
p.s. My birthday is exactly a month away. I don't care if anyone buys me anything. I stopped expecting presents ever since my 17th bday when the present from my bestfriend at the time was a sip of her 40, haha whatta fuckin bitch. Just hang out with me. Drink with me. Laugh at me when I black out at hump things. I just wanna have fun with the people I care about.