The limitations of the mortal.
Sigh. I don't know. I just feel like something ought to happen. Something grand, like some really really grand ought to happen to me. Something that will change me and my life (for the better) profoundly. Maybe it's my own arrogance talking, but it just seems like it's not fair that a heart that longs so deeply for that doesn't get it. I'm not talking love or a new car or something ordinary like that. I'm talking something BIG...like life altering big. -Sighs deeply- But I realize that it won't happen because what I'm wanting isn't possible. I'm wanting to be uprooted from this dulldrum of a life I'm living now, into something grand-scale...like...like...-Sigh- I really don't know. I just feel like I deserve more...but then again...like I said, it's my own arrogance talking.
Which as you might have guessed from that little paragraph, I'm extremely depressed right now. -Sigh- I doubt very seriously that even the thought of anything I usually find remotely funny could make me even smile right now. I'm just horribly tired of this life. -Shrugs- I kinda feel a little trapped in this flesh and bone bag of a body. I mean...theres sooo much of me packed into this tiny thing of a body that it seems amazing to me sometimes that it can hold it all in...that I can hold it all in. I mean...theres so much emotion and intellegence and personality molded into me that it's inevitable that I'll feel trapped every now and then. I want to be able to do more...it seems like I should be able to do more...than what this little body limits me to.
Grr....I'm just horribly frustrated and depressed right now.