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Is it possible?
Is it possible to be so happy, so soon after something so horrible?
I thought that I loved Glenn, now looking back, I don’t think I did and I certainly do not think that he ever loved me. He treated me too horribly to love me. Love isn’t what him and I were. I don’t know what him and I were, but it wasn’t good, it wasn’t healthy and it definitely isn’t something I could’ve lived with for the rest of my life.
It’s amazing to me how things work. Chris and I dated in Sept/Oct. of 04. Glenn and I started dating in November of 04. I broke up with Chris, to be with Glenn. Chris who was wonderful even back then, I was just too infatuated with something that I had wanted for so long that was finally happening. In the year that Chris and I didn’t talk, we had both had the shittiest relationships imaginable. And all around the same time (within a week) our horrible relationships fell apart. We had kept in touch as much as we could, so we were still on a “friend” level. I remember talking to him when I thought my world was falling apart and everything just seemed better.
I remember going to the movies with him on Christmas night. Its like we had picked up right where we left off. Like we hadn’t just not seen each other for a year.
Chris is great and having a great person around makes you appreciate him. There is no way I could ever go back to someone like Glenn, ever, not after being treated like I am now. The respect that is there between Chris and I is something I never felt between Glenn and I. Chris is a gentlemen. He opens all doors, we go on real dates all of the time. My family loves him to death, like he is a part of it already. His family is just as important to him, as my family is to me. His family loves me and they treat me like family already too. Family dinners all of the time and just always feeling welcomed when I’m over there. His mom remembering that I like baked potatoes with my steaks instead of French fries and making one just for me to have, so I will feel ‘at home’ when I’m around them. How we cut up while watching Sunday football and talking crap to Chris about his team and his dad ganging up on him with me. All of that is just something Ive always wanted in someone. Someone who adores his family just as much as he should adore me. Someone who appreciates the little things in life and who’s just as calm and collective as I am.
So I guess, its just that possible to be this happy after something so horrible. Had it not been for something so horrible happening to me, I wouldn’t be near as thankful to have Chris, as I am.
He’s my baby <3
Is it possible to be so happy, so soon after something so horrible?
I thought that I loved Glenn, now looking back, I don’t think I did and I certainly do not think that he ever loved me. He treated me too horribly to love me. Love isn’t what him and I were. I don’t know what him and I were, but it wasn’t good, it wasn’t healthy and it definitely isn’t something I could’ve lived with for the rest of my life.
It’s amazing to me how things work. Chris and I dated in Sept/Oct. of 04. Glenn and I started dating in November of 04. I broke up with Chris, to be with Glenn. Chris who was wonderful even back then, I was just too infatuated with something that I had wanted for so long that was finally happening. In the year that Chris and I didn’t talk, we had both had the shittiest relationships imaginable. And all around the same time (within a week) our horrible relationships fell apart. We had kept in touch as much as we could, so we were still on a “friend” level. I remember talking to him when I thought my world was falling apart and everything just seemed better.
I remember going to the movies with him on Christmas night. Its like we had picked up right where we left off. Like we hadn’t just not seen each other for a year.
Chris is great and having a great person around makes you appreciate him. There is no way I could ever go back to someone like Glenn, ever, not after being treated like I am now. The respect that is there between Chris and I is something I never felt between Glenn and I. Chris is a gentlemen. He opens all doors, we go on real dates all of the time. My family loves him to death, like he is a part of it already. His family is just as important to him, as my family is to me. His family loves me and they treat me like family already too. Family dinners all of the time and just always feeling welcomed when I’m over there. His mom remembering that I like baked potatoes with my steaks instead of French fries and making one just for me to have, so I will feel ‘at home’ when I’m around them. How we cut up while watching Sunday football and talking crap to Chris about his team and his dad ganging up on him with me. All of that is just something Ive always wanted in someone. Someone who adores his family just as much as he should adore me. Someone who appreciates the little things in life and who’s just as calm and collective as I am.
So I guess, its just that possible to be this happy after something so horrible. Had it not been for something so horrible happening to me, I wouldn’t be near as thankful to have Chris, as I am.
He’s my baby <3