Hello
Gosh not even looking when I last made a post!!
Hope everyone is well.
Just thought it was time to update my goings on. Been a heck of a few months. On a positive note I have completed my 2nd year of the degree and have begun driving lessons. On a sad point my father dies a few weeks ago. I was a bit concerned about him at Christmas but he said he felt fine, by Feb he looked quite poorly with a huge amont of weight loss in only a few weeks. I demanded he go the docs, he said he would pop in, didnt see him for 2 weeks and on hubs birthday 3rd March he arrived looking shocked and ill. He told us the doctore had sent him for tests and it could be cancer. Cut a long stroy short, he was diagnosed with cancer a couple of weeks later and died on the 27th April. Below was what i wrote for the funeral:
The 3rd of March changed everything. I remember you walking through the door and to see you so weak frightened me. You kept apologising for sharing your news on Trev’s birthday, but all we wanted to do was get into action and help and support you. Dad I have always known you had strength, courage and dignity but I never imagined how amazing these gifts of yours truly were.
The consultant was astounded when you managed to walk into the hospital and even more amazed to find out that you had been living on your own and taking care of yourself. After that you were rarely on your own, we all rallied and did whatever we could to help. I have never heard a man say thank you soo much in my life, you appreciated the moments we shared, we spoke of things and talked in a way I never thought possible.
I find it hard to believe how fast the illness took you but that would have been how you wanted it. On that last afternoon, even though you were only hours away from passing, there you were mouthing the scores of the football match to Trev. When Sarah came in I realised that you knew. You took hold of Sarah’s hand and we said you will be fine; your girls are with you now. When you said to me, I think I am going, I told you that you were not allowed to leave me and I would kick your arse if you did. You chuckled.
John and Trev lay you down (something so simple which you had needed for 6 weeks) and you fell asleep.
I feel at the moment that the next significant events in my life will be a tad more meaningless because you won’t be there. BUT then I think of that strength, courage and dignity you showed and I know that you will be with me in spirit and I carry that strength in me too.
So as they say life goes on, I am glad of the break fron Uni and am spending time (been a while) caring for the spiritual aspects of my life.
Will have a good nosey to catch up with all your news.
xxxx