The Notebook
Today is Valentines day and of coarse I had to miss school, go to the doctor, and get some new medication and some more of the old stuff. I have been feeling really cruddy and the medicine he proscribed me makes me go insane. Stomach aches, loss of sleep, depression, and last time I was on it I lost ...I have to say about 5 to 10 pounds in just a matter of days. :(
Emotionally I am wreck, my parents got me for Valentines day the movie The Notebook. After watching that a couple of times I think it does something to you. It makes me reflect on summer love, dreams, maybe even crushes. Watching the movie almost relaxes me and gives me a calm feeling. I love the fact to know that there is something better out there and you don't have to go to the highest ranked college to have it. You don't even have to make a lot of money or make a huge accomplish in science. Yet after so many reasons you can have it... it is still the hardest to find. If you do find it how do you know it is real until you loose it or how do you know you are truly happy until you have been sad. If I have lost something and been upset over it how can I trust to be happy again. Can one relationship be different from the others and yet you not know much of what was really there at all. Someone might KNOW another person just by watching their actions or know that they are upset without them saying a word. Could a woman be so beautiful that after a matter of time her face can still pop into a mans head. Can he just smile at her without her having to say a word. The man in the story truly loved her and I would love to know I can make an impact like that....not being class victorian or being everyones favorite celebrity. If I could just be myself and have someone fall in love with me, someone who would love to talk to me, or just look at me... maybe it would be nice to be in love.....
Ugh..... I really need to stop watching these movies!!
Emotionally I am wreck, my parents got me for Valentines day the movie The Notebook. After watching that a couple of times I think it does something to you. It makes me reflect on summer love, dreams, maybe even crushes. Watching the movie almost relaxes me and gives me a calm feeling. I love the fact to know that there is something better out there and you don't have to go to the highest ranked college to have it. You don't even have to make a lot of money or make a huge accomplish in science. Yet after so many reasons you can have it... it is still the hardest to find. If you do find it how do you know it is real until you loose it or how do you know you are truly happy until you have been sad. If I have lost something and been upset over it how can I trust to be happy again. Can one relationship be different from the others and yet you not know much of what was really there at all. Someone might KNOW another person just by watching their actions or know that they are upset without them saying a word. Could a woman be so beautiful that after a matter of time her face can still pop into a mans head. Can he just smile at her without her having to say a word. The man in the story truly loved her and I would love to know I can make an impact like that....not being class victorian or being everyones favorite celebrity. If I could just be myself and have someone fall in love with me, someone who would love to talk to me, or just look at me... maybe it would be nice to be in love.....
Ugh..... I really need to stop watching these movies!!