2wenty 1ne
today, well yesterday, was my 21st birthday. it was great. i honestly can't ask for more.. i have very good loyal dedicated friends who never cease to amaze me and an even more wonderful family. when i woke up today, i swear, i was ready to wage war against anything and anyone who crossed my path. that changed when i opened my mom's birthday card.. there was no money no material attatched, but finally a message i have been waiting for. it basically said, no matter where i go, what dreams i follow, she will be my mother, and her love will follow too. i started to cry on my way to work, but it was a happy cry. i was still down. and just random birthday messages from FRIENDS put me in a little bit of a better place. i went to my nana's after work and spent some time with her. she's my #1 girl, i can love any girl, but know my nana has you beat. i met up with my mom, nina, uncle juan, steph and the baby. we all went down to frantones and slowly the rest of my family started to fill in. my uncle victor, my cousin victor & his new wife, my cousin cruz his wife & 2 girls, then anthony. it was a good dinner, i was so glad to see everyone getting along. i was so happy to see the baby play with my uncle victor too, he's a hard ass work a holic pessimist. to see him play with a baby just let me see him him smile again. i almost wanted to cry again. not everyone in my family could be there but i know they wanted to be so it was okay. ya know we always focus on the things we don't have and it brings us down, cause honestly i've been feeling so so so lonely lately.. but that family dinner just brought me back up to that good place. after dinner me & anthony drove around bullshitting about friday's festivities. i want him to be happy SO bad. he just has to let go and open up. \anyways, came to gilberts for a while and then took off to some new club, MOSCOW. it was cool, music was alright, atmosphere good, 1hour WAIT IN LINE OUTSIDE!!! was not that cool but i actually talked to new people today so that was a step forward i guess. now i'm back at gilberts.. great birthday, great. almost a 100% perfect utopia..