Emo's ruin everything
It's like 5:30. I decided to stay up all night. Man, I really don't like my job. It's hard to pinpoint what I don't like. Julio's really layed off me recently and the work isn't terribly hard, I just don't like it. I think it's because I ALWAYS feel like I'm behind in work. I'm fairly confident that if I went looking for a job I could find one in a few weeks that pays way more and that I'd probably like better. The problem is I can't leave. If I leave a lot of things are fucked up. Most of the telecom project goes down the shitter. Rod will lose a shitload of money he's invested. There will be a lot of pissed off customers. Julio will be pissed that he's risked everything so far for nothing. If I leave I fuck over 7 co-workers and a dick load of customers. So it really isn't even a matter of if I want to leave or not, I can't leave. I'm stuck. Programming is 2340982323409238 times harder and more stress than any other area of the computing field. I almost want to get out of it and do B.S. admin jobs. Then I could sit in a desk all day and bitch about programmers, set up a few new users email, then call it a day. An admin job would own. Oh well. They aren't going to fire me any time soon, I know that much.
Maybe I would feel more fufilled if I started side projects? Like start programming games or something like that. I think I'm going to buy some programming books, learn some new languages, and do that shit.
Oh well, I guess life isn't perfect. I have a lot of fun with my friends and things are relativly financially stable for me. It just sucks that there's this constant cloud over me of work. Every minute I'm not doing work I think about it and how gay it is when I have to do it.
Maybe I would feel more fufilled if I started side projects? Like start programming games or something like that. I think I'm going to buy some programming books, learn some new languages, and do that shit.
Oh well, I guess life isn't perfect. I have a lot of fun with my friends and things are relativly financially stable for me. It just sucks that there's this constant cloud over me of work. Every minute I'm not doing work I think about it and how gay it is when I have to do it.