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So tonight is the official opening night for Quantum's WEST SIDE STORY and I am very very nervous. Mostly because my mom is coming to see it. This is the first UM show that my mother will attend since I've been here. She never came to see my Murder Mystery, or the Musical Revue (thank god for that one), I didn't tell her I was in the Rocky Horror Show because she was still dealing with the gay thing (and that show really screamed gay, bi, straight, and all of that mixed. whatever that means. maybe it just means bi. lol) And then came A CHORUS LINE... The show I asked her not to come to because I was playing a gay character with a monologue about coming out to his parents (this is a big no-no for a mom who recently found out her son was gay). Even though I had asked her not to, I was more than a little hurt when she didn't come. The only reason I told her that was because she was freaking out about it, so I wanted to save some of my dignity by pretending I didn't care if she came. Well...she bought it, and didn't come. To this day she still hasn't been able to watch it, not even the video! Talk about dramatic! I came out to her 3 years ago! Get over it!
So now for West Side, she started freaking out about me having my hair dyed and having to wear tights (cause it's kida gay. it's not like I wear fucking tights to go out on the street!). So I did the usual and pretended I didn't care if she came. But then I realized that it was time to stand up to her. And I did! I told her everything that I had been feeling the past 4 years, and I told her that I was done with apologies for what I was doing for theatre. I love theatre and sometimes "you gotta do what you gotta do" for a show. I told her that I have always wanted her to come to my shows, but if she wouldn't come support her son for a silly reason like hair dye then it was better that she didn't come. Because I am proud of my shows at UM. And I will not let her put them down!
And then of course...she decided to come.
So she's coming tonight and I am freaking out cause I have to not fuck up today. I need to do a fantastic show since I made such a big deal out of her not coming. I am really happy she decided to come. But that's what's got me nervous because I just wanna make her proud.
So now for West Side, she started freaking out about me having my hair dyed and having to wear tights (cause it's kida gay. it's not like I wear fucking tights to go out on the street!). So I did the usual and pretended I didn't care if she came. But then I realized that it was time to stand up to her. And I did! I told her everything that I had been feeling the past 4 years, and I told her that I was done with apologies for what I was doing for theatre. I love theatre and sometimes "you gotta do what you gotta do" for a show. I told her that I have always wanted her to come to my shows, but if she wouldn't come support her son for a silly reason like hair dye then it was better that she didn't come. Because I am proud of my shows at UM. And I will not let her put them down!
And then of course...she decided to come.
So she's coming tonight and I am freaking out cause I have to not fuck up today. I need to do a fantastic show since I made such a big deal out of her not coming. I am really happy she decided to come. But that's what's got me nervous because I just wanna make her proud.