i can't sleep at night.. when your on my mind
Ay, so i'm not in the greatest mood because im getting sick and my throat hurts =( , and other junk. But let's see..
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I'm fostering a cute little doggie =D shes so cute..but we gotta give her back because shes not getting al0ng with my other d0g..so that bites..shes like seriously attached to me, it's so cute. But anyways nothing that interesting has happened lately.. School is gay as fuck, AS usual. I can't wait till its over with it, but i actually can..because shyams leaving allllll away across the world for a month =( i can't even fucking talk to him, see him, nothing. Not even on my birthday, my 16th too. ugh ima be so fucking depressed, i mean wtf am i spose to do?? I have to write in my little diary thingy about what im doing ever day..and give it to him when he gets back..but i won't even know what hes doing everyday. this bites. But whats worse is that 4 days after he gets back he has to go to chicago for like another 4 or 5 days.. ugh summer is gunna be so gay.. but at least my dads opening the restaurant in a few weeks so ill have a job to keep me occupied..kinda, even tho he's gunna be on my mind 24-7..its gunna be so hard..i just pray to god everythings gunna be perfect when he gets back..he`ll have his car, so he promised to come surprise me when he gets in town. =) that day ima be so happy and just tackle his ass lol.. but whatever...well he gets his licence in 6 days (4-21) =) yay..
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Well nothing too interesting has happened at home.. i mean the other day a butter knife fell on my toe and it bled lol but thas about it.. This weekend is gunna be gay as FUk.. sitting at home =/ but whateverr i dont care, i dont care. [ Btw: im doing good in school my niccuh lol all a's and b's on my report card and 1 c is spanish wwhat lol ]
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So today i'm really like blah. I feel like the worst person in the world. Mainly, the worst girlfriend, i mean i really do try my hardest to make my own bf feel happy and special by giving him little notes, and drawings about what i like about him =) and giving him little stuffs..but somehow someway i still feel like im horriable, i mean to him im sellfish, a cry baby, just everything. and i hate it. Butttt whateverr im not gunna stress nothing, im sick of the same ol' bullshit. But still.. all in all i love him [<3] and of course we'll get over it eventually, i just hate hearing the same old shit, and feeling like im worthless. well, i'm gunna get going.
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♥ kc
I'm trying to keep it together, but I'm falling apart..