Apr 15, 2007 12:00
"Lovely Ocean"
If I have loved you a million times, I shall love you a million more times over. In the dead sea and in sands filled with sea shells, castles we have made together. Building this love is like building an ocean building these feelings is like building and endless journy. I shall love you more than a million, more than words could ever say. A friendship that is sweet as could be no matter the distance my attachment can't be cut no matter how the future speads its seeds.
"Damage"
You're so cute, can I have you? I want to eat you whole all at once--I must have it all, tasting every last drop. Licking my heart as you stitch my wounds with your incredible touch, I'll reward you with kisses. I must warn you though that my love isn't so pleasant. Crazy and mad, unstable-it will rott you to the core. The stepping stones shall damage your bare feet. Tip toe to me blowing kisses. I'll throw my heart at you maybe you can fix the connections. You will become obsessed trying to figure me out, staying up all hours of the night recreating my heart and untwisting my soul. My love will fill your holes but I will never be whole. To love me--to truly love me is allowing yourself to go insane. I'll make you blue and smile, sparks will fly even burst into hate but you will always come back to me and I will love you just the same.
"Bitter Chocolate"
I eat men like candy how sweet it taste going down, slithering down my throat along with my broken emotions holding my heart in their crushed hands. I swollow it all like bitter posion-you have poisoned me. Bury that gown it's all a lie. Nothing stays blissful it all eventually dies like the human race shall. Cut my veins watch the blood drip and all leak out. My sweet candy. Can I have one last kiss-a kiss like our first? So passionate, one last touch before I eat you alive. Men, they taste so yummy but are nasty diseases that contaminates even the kindest girls. They ruin the sweetiest of hearts and dismiss you even when they are there.
"My Gift"
My heart is broken but I can't explain why no one would understand. Confusion. I am a mess like this crazy world--I could just cry maybe I will, tears non-stop like my sadness. I feel so lost, spider webs in different directions. My soul has no where else to go but down. Dead. Give me a bullet and twist it in my heart, I am numb I won't complain. End it all. I'm not pretty niether are my insides so please stop with the kind words. You're too sweet--too sweet for this world it will only scar you my Darlin. My scars are deep and my skin is spoiled. I rott. Stintch--can't you smell me? I'm dying. here is my heart you don't even have to ask just take it. This is my gift to you. Do whatever you would like--bury it or treasure it. I promise it's yours for as long as you need. In the end you will thank me because I thank you for caring so much. Your love will live in me forever in time.
"Lolita"
I took a wrong turn somewhere now I am lost. Empty and emotionless. I love you and think of you daily--nothing is greater than my heart. I'll go deep--deep into your soul. I might of killed you I'm sorry didn't mean to. We are now disconnected not connected like it use to be. I ruined us, what could of been but you are better off afterwards. I would of drained you, sucked everything out. You are so pure and sweet like untainted love, I am the spoiled crumbs left behind. Maybe someday I'll find my way back--back into your every last word, every being of your heart, every dried tear. For now everything is destroyed. Just call me Lolita
"Dirty"
Don't you just love my dirty heart, all the blood is dried up-my veins seep out poison. To love me is to hate me, I'm not so sweet. Honey with faults I am everything but perfect. I give looks that could kill, these pink lips say anything but kind words. I'll shred you to pieces! Distant and disconnected. I will burn your flesh with my touch, I will kill your soul with my dirty heart--Dirty, dirty is what I am. Wicked and untamed like a cat. Pretty scars, pretty marks but not so pretty face. I eat men alive just like they have eaten my emotions. I have nothing left, so thank you!
"My Tin Heart"
I must deprive myself from you, your love I must resist. Today is the day I realized how much you mean to me, tears are broken so is my heart. I wish I could shut down like a robot, a bad circuit. I'm dying on the inside so please just bury me. I need sleep. Put a rusty nail through my heart-kill it. Kill my love I want to feel nothing. Oh, please! I'm dried up like dirt I have nothing left to give to offer. This is it. Separation from your world, it's so far away. The distance but with an invisble connection-sparks fly an electric shock that may die someday. Cut my veins in half, disconnect me-me from you. Flustered and hurt-confused but still full of sweet emotions. I can't take it any longer. I feel so misplaced so lost. Who am I suppose to share it all with? So now I cry may my tin heart drain its pain of oil killing every part of me. My limp wounds.