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I think im slowly loosing it again. That or i didn't find it from the first time i lost it. I feel like a basket case lately. I never let shit bother me before but for some reason lately i cant help it. I feel like such a little drama queen. This isn't me. I never gave a fuck before. i was more than willing to speak my mind, but now i feel like why bother?? hmmm..... i need a change. to many things bringing me down. I guess i just need to accept that life is never going to work out like i would like it to. I just wish i wouldn't let myself get so involved. I guess i really just need to get over it.
My step mom called me today. I was rather shocked. Our relationship has never been that great. We talked awhile. I guess her and my dad are having some issues. No surprise there. I smell a divorce in the up coming months. They have been going at since i could remember. I guess i was the glue holding it together. With me gone it won't be long now!
I'm applying for a job tomorrow. My step sister used to work at a local photography studio and i guess they might be looking for someone. My sister talked me up and i already know the guy. I figure why not. I have always enjoyed photography and have always wanted to be a photographer. In recent months i got away from it due to lack of inspiration and well.... other personal reasons. maybe this could help spark something lost. I don't want to get my hopes up. Even if i could intern that would rock. Ill keep my fingers crossed, but my luck really isn't that great.
School starts Wednesday. Maybe this will distract the demons that have been controling my brain! I cant wait to meet some new people. Granted i love the ones i know, but new faces would be nice. I think the thing i like the most about going to OSUN as opposed to OSU is the fact that im going to school with alot of people i know and went to school with. I think this might help get me back to normal. Or at least i hope.
This apartment is lonely. I feel so alone. I need to get away from this hole. I want out!!!!!!
Well good night live Journal!
ChRiS
My step mom called me today. I was rather shocked. Our relationship has never been that great. We talked awhile. I guess her and my dad are having some issues. No surprise there. I smell a divorce in the up coming months. They have been going at since i could remember. I guess i was the glue holding it together. With me gone it won't be long now!
I'm applying for a job tomorrow. My step sister used to work at a local photography studio and i guess they might be looking for someone. My sister talked me up and i already know the guy. I figure why not. I have always enjoyed photography and have always wanted to be a photographer. In recent months i got away from it due to lack of inspiration and well.... other personal reasons. maybe this could help spark something lost. I don't want to get my hopes up. Even if i could intern that would rock. Ill keep my fingers crossed, but my luck really isn't that great.
School starts Wednesday. Maybe this will distract the demons that have been controling my brain! I cant wait to meet some new people. Granted i love the ones i know, but new faces would be nice. I think the thing i like the most about going to OSUN as opposed to OSU is the fact that im going to school with alot of people i know and went to school with. I think this might help get me back to normal. Or at least i hope.
This apartment is lonely. I feel so alone. I need to get away from this hole. I want out!!!!!!
Well good night live Journal!
ChRiS