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I've been going through life without actually feeling anything recently. I've become so good at dissociating that I do it at every waking moment. I feel like a zombie most the time when I'm awake. I'm afraid the dissociating might lead to something bigger, something drastic. Or maybe I'll just completely lose myself one day. I'll drift so far off in my head, and never return. It sounds nice, so why fight it. Except the fact that I seem like a freak. Going places, but never really being there... in a crowded room just lost in my thoughts. Thoughts that never stop, thoughts that take over my whole mind.