Dreams...
My heart's sad the last few days. Nothing out of the norm. Mostly girl induced I'm sure. I hope. I had a string of dreams last night. Lots of dreaming lately as I'm often interrupted by this evil allergy cough that I've developed a couple months ago. So this dream. I dreamt I saw him at the airport. And that was going to be the last time I was ever going to see him. He told me he loved me and all the reasons why, but I couldn't hear him. I heard at first, but the sound slowly faded out. It was as if I were physically becoming farther and farther away from him. But first the sound went. Something out of a movie. I told him I loved him too. I was holding onto him for dear life and him me. It was so sad. I'm tearing up just thinking about it. This is the second time I've cried just thinking back on this. And it was just a dream. I just remember being so sad. I'm still sad. Feels like I haven't been for a while though. I've been doing ok with distractions. But I was bound to come back down to this. I wonder. I really wonder. When I'll be happy. I don't want to dream anymore.