you know it's getting low when...

[bluedaisy7]

this is such bad timing. so emotional. crying by watching a tv commercial when seeing a shrimp cocktail. memories flooding back. i hate this feeling. it's so pathetic. i want this to be over. i can't deal with this right now. why have i done this to myself again. sometimes i just don't think i'll ever figure it out. what i'm put on this earth to do. sometimes i think it's just not going to happen for me. i was one of the lemons. an accident. the experiment gone wrong.

~i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name...i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset~

i think i need a new name. and a new place.