The way I feel
Ever had one of those where you're sure if one more bad thing happens you'll lose your mind? I was facing that today. Most of it is trival, stupid shit, but it really gets to me. The smallest thing upsets me really. I don't let it show usually. My way of dealing with things is just to turn all the feelings off and try to act like nothings wrong(you know-- Put on a happy face!). I've realized I have no one to talk about how I'm feeling. Most people tend to just tell me there is nothing to the way I feel. And if that's true then my feelings don't matter, right? That's the way I feel anyway.
It seems like lately that everything I do gets critized. I'm not a good parent. I'm not a good friend. I'm not a good daughter/ wife /sister /sister-in-law /daughter-inlaw... Maybe I'm just having a bad day and it just makes it seem worse. Maybe I'm just crazy. Hell who knows? I sure don't-- wish I did.(sure do).
I just know it eats at my stomach. It feels like I swallowed a live snake and he's trying to get out. My stomach aches, twitches, and shoots pain. Doesn't help that my side hurts-- I don't know why. The pains getting worse and I'm worried out of my mind. What is it? What is it?! Please let this doctor take me seriously.
There is so much more on my mind things I really don't wanna go into. Mostly cause well... people might find it and read it. And you know I just don't want that to happen. I can't stand confrentation(sp). And I really can't tolorate someone being mad at me.
So that's all for tonight. Truthfully I feel some what better... And if anyone noticed that my spelling was horrible and my grammar off-- bite me!
The end.
It seems like lately that everything I do gets critized. I'm not a good parent. I'm not a good friend. I'm not a good daughter/ wife /sister /sister-in-law /daughter-inlaw... Maybe I'm just having a bad day and it just makes it seem worse. Maybe I'm just crazy. Hell who knows? I sure don't-- wish I did.(sure do).
I just know it eats at my stomach. It feels like I swallowed a live snake and he's trying to get out. My stomach aches, twitches, and shoots pain. Doesn't help that my side hurts-- I don't know why. The pains getting worse and I'm worried out of my mind. What is it? What is it?! Please let this doctor take me seriously.
There is so much more on my mind things I really don't wanna go into. Mostly cause well... people might find it and read it. And you know I just don't want that to happen. I can't stand confrentation(sp). And I really can't tolorate someone being mad at me.
So that's all for tonight. Truthfully I feel some what better... And if anyone noticed that my spelling was horrible and my grammar off-- bite me!
The end.