the night that passed
last nite was real fun. even though i had to be in at ten. matt and i were gonna fly solo because lindsey went to the corn maze. i might have been able to go with except i had to be home early and i didn't want to have to shower before bed time. all that mud. but i think i angered lindsey. but i do ALWAYS speak in great volume.
anywho, matt and i were gonna fly solo but then cousin reed came over to retrieve his gafas del sol from mamaw's car. he was with some guy named joe who i think i might have seen before....but i wasn't sure. anyhow, they came over and we talked under the carport for about a quarter of and hour and i asked if they wanted to go to sonic. they accepted and we had some coupons and we got a lot of stuff for only $1.08. Kaitlyn was our waitress. i think we might have gotten her in trouble. i hope not. anywho...reed was fun as usual and joe seemed pretty cool. it was great fun. i was sad that it had to end so early.
on the way home matt said that he missed hanging out with reed and blake. me too. but...i will never be allowed to drive out there...however, now that he is licensed, i fear that old times will be again times. i fear that old bitterness will happen again. this summer was absolutely gorgeous in every single way. but now that cousins are back in the picture i think i'll be out of it. gah. i hate it. why do people have to be so petty. and by people i mean me. i dunno...i love blake and matt and reed. but whenever it's the four of us it just feels so...uncomfortable. it's the three of them and then there is me. i feel so out of place and awkward. and it's just stupid. they're like my three best buddies, and reed and blake are my cousins and we've always been the best of friends since the dawn of time...but i hate how i make mistakes. and i hate how people don't forgive them. and maybe it was all worth it because maybe we've all realized how much we've been missing out on. i just wish things were normal again. and i wish i wasn't selfish. i think a lot of the problems aren't with anyone else; i think they're with me. i'm just so confused. i need someone to talk to. i'll give this friendshi[p thing another try. but. i think that i just end up getting screwed over and over. and over. but, maybe it's just me. i guess i should just be thankful that there is no skanks to deal with this go round. hopefully.
i think i did well on the PSAT this morning. wouldn't it just be awesome if i was a national merit scholar? ha. don't count on it.i thought it was crazy how a lot of people were like fully dressed and made up and everything. i mean, who cares? i just washed my fzce and went. sped the enitre way. got to the school in less than five minutes and normally it takes about ten. i was running sorta late.
i miss makena.
anywho, matt and i were gonna fly solo but then cousin reed came over to retrieve his gafas del sol from mamaw's car. he was with some guy named joe who i think i might have seen before....but i wasn't sure. anyhow, they came over and we talked under the carport for about a quarter of and hour and i asked if they wanted to go to sonic. they accepted and we had some coupons and we got a lot of stuff for only $1.08. Kaitlyn was our waitress. i think we might have gotten her in trouble. i hope not. anywho...reed was fun as usual and joe seemed pretty cool. it was great fun. i was sad that it had to end so early.
on the way home matt said that he missed hanging out with reed and blake. me too. but...i will never be allowed to drive out there...however, now that he is licensed, i fear that old times will be again times. i fear that old bitterness will happen again. this summer was absolutely gorgeous in every single way. but now that cousins are back in the picture i think i'll be out of it. gah. i hate it. why do people have to be so petty. and by people i mean me. i dunno...i love blake and matt and reed. but whenever it's the four of us it just feels so...uncomfortable. it's the three of them and then there is me. i feel so out of place and awkward. and it's just stupid. they're like my three best buddies, and reed and blake are my cousins and we've always been the best of friends since the dawn of time...but i hate how i make mistakes. and i hate how people don't forgive them. and maybe it was all worth it because maybe we've all realized how much we've been missing out on. i just wish things were normal again. and i wish i wasn't selfish. i think a lot of the problems aren't with anyone else; i think they're with me. i'm just so confused. i need someone to talk to. i'll give this friendshi[p thing another try. but. i think that i just end up getting screwed over and over. and over. but, maybe it's just me. i guess i should just be thankful that there is no skanks to deal with this go round. hopefully.
i think i did well on the PSAT this morning. wouldn't it just be awesome if i was a national merit scholar? ha. don't count on it.i thought it was crazy how a lot of people were like fully dressed and made up and everything. i mean, who cares? i just washed my fzce and went. sped the enitre way. got to the school in less than five minutes and normally it takes about ten. i was running sorta late.
i miss makena.