It not a feeling anymore

[bluecatears]

I no longer feel like I'm loosing touch with Mad, I'm pretty sure now. This whole thing with Alix (which is dumb drama! why is this even here?!) is just really coming between us. Naturally I expect Mad to side with Alix, I mean, it would be dumb to side with your ex-boyfriend over a friend who you have known for years. It just sucks for me because it seems that Mad is sidding with one side over the other. I don't think it needs to be that way, but In almost all relationships, you don't keep in touch with the ex after a while. You say you will, but you don't. It just sucks for me that its happening before I really come to terms with not having her.

*Shrug*
Move on.

Today was a shit day. Almost got fired. Have to do a lot of work this weekend to make up for a weeks worth of no working. I can do it in one day, it's just not going to be much fun.

*sigh*
Move on.

I think I might be ready for a change of scenery again. I moved here to be with Mad. Whats the point in staying here? I've always wanted to try Seattle. Maybe I'll room with Adam for a month, see how it works out. Always wanted to try Seattle.

*ponder*
Move on.

UFS tourny in 1 month minus 1 day. I am not ready, nor will I be ready. I have no idea what kind of deck I want to use.

This month's promo card is Santa Claus. and I think I might get him and play with that card. It would be silly as hell, but it might work.

We have booze now, so I will go make myself a glass of feel better matt.

See ya.