Looking Up
My grandmother was released from the hospital yesterday. Her MRIs showed that she'd suffered a series of diabetic strokes - also known as "silent strokes" - and that some parts of her brain were affected. She will always suffer now from memory loss problems, especially to her short term memory. Her long term memory was also damaged, and her balance. She's always going to be a little bit disoriented, which is sad - she's always been poised and comfortable in her surroundings.
Yesterday was also one of the few times since the incident with my clan that I broke my silence and spoke to any of my relatives. It was an awkward phone call at best, mostly dealing with my grandmother's condition and what it would mean for her lifestyle and activities. After we were done talking about my grandma, my uncle asked me, "How are you doing?" I answered so clumsily that we both kind of stopped talking, embarrassed. Then reality kicked in and we said our goodbyes.
Today I had an interview at IndioCRM - a small but influential CRM agency where I was referred by the nephew of a family friend. The interview itself went pretty well, but somehow I'm more excited and interested in working for OgilvyOne - if they'll still have me, of course. I'll probably know by January. Till then, it's going to be a kind of lean Christmas for me. It's a bit sad for me to come into the Christmas season with so little, since I really went out of my way the past few years to get Christmas gifts for everyone. This year I'm barely going to have enough for gifts for my immediate family.
Still, life goes on, and I'm relatively happy and at peace now with the world. No more late nights spent praying for my uncle to die - and I don't want to be that person ever again, the person who actively and wholeheartedly wishes for misfortune to fall on someone else, regardless of what the provocation may be. I think I have enough to deal with in my life without carrying around a burden like that.
Tonight I'm going to sleep well, content that I spent my day doing things I wanted to do (I may not have spent the day well, but no one told me how to waste my time). I think that's about all I can ask for right at this moment.
Yesterday was also one of the few times since the incident with my clan that I broke my silence and spoke to any of my relatives. It was an awkward phone call at best, mostly dealing with my grandmother's condition and what it would mean for her lifestyle and activities. After we were done talking about my grandma, my uncle asked me, "How are you doing?" I answered so clumsily that we both kind of stopped talking, embarrassed. Then reality kicked in and we said our goodbyes.
Today I had an interview at IndioCRM - a small but influential CRM agency where I was referred by the nephew of a family friend. The interview itself went pretty well, but somehow I'm more excited and interested in working for OgilvyOne - if they'll still have me, of course. I'll probably know by January. Till then, it's going to be a kind of lean Christmas for me. It's a bit sad for me to come into the Christmas season with so little, since I really went out of my way the past few years to get Christmas gifts for everyone. This year I'm barely going to have enough for gifts for my immediate family.
Still, life goes on, and I'm relatively happy and at peace now with the world. No more late nights spent praying for my uncle to die - and I don't want to be that person ever again, the person who actively and wholeheartedly wishes for misfortune to fall on someone else, regardless of what the provocation may be. I think I have enough to deal with in my life without carrying around a burden like that.
Tonight I'm going to sleep well, content that I spent my day doing things I wanted to do (I may not have spent the day well, but no one told me how to waste my time). I think that's about all I can ask for right at this moment.