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not truly knowing someone doesn't preclude their actions from affecting you profoundly.
i'm upset because part of my reality has been shattered. That in which everything, if not perfect, was constant. It doesn't exist any longer.
but what if the phone call had been about her. how would i have felt? i wouldn't have been able to deal.
i'm in shock. i think we all are. beyond being sad, we're in shock. an equally acute emotion.
i sit and think and think and think, i can't yet conceive that this is real. that's the hard part.
it took me three days to gather the courage to call her to tell her i love her and that i'm sorry.
betsy called me today. about this time last week i was nervous about a terrible dream i'd had about her. after all this, i'm thankful she is doing fine.
i'm upset because part of my reality has been shattered. That in which everything, if not perfect, was constant. It doesn't exist any longer.
but what if the phone call had been about her. how would i have felt? i wouldn't have been able to deal.
i'm in shock. i think we all are. beyond being sad, we're in shock. an equally acute emotion.
i sit and think and think and think, i can't yet conceive that this is real. that's the hard part.
it took me three days to gather the courage to call her to tell her i love her and that i'm sorry.
betsy called me today. about this time last week i was nervous about a terrible dream i'd had about her. after all this, i'm thankful she is doing fine.