Thoughts
On the job search:
Good news: A company you'd really like to work for is having you come in for an interview/site tour on Friday.
Bad news: The interview/site tour lasts all day, starting at 8 am and going for eight hours.
Good news: You find out several managers from said company have seen your resume and want to talk to you about working for them.
Bad news: This means there you will have SIX DIFFERENT INTERVIEWS on Friday.
So if I die on Friday, you now know why.
On theology:
So, tonight I went to a debate between Greg Boyd (famous Christian apologist) and Bob Price (famous evangelical-Christian-turned-atheist). Normally, I eat things like this up. I love debates like this, they help me clarify what I believe, and why I believe it. But there was something missing tonight. Maybe it was just because I was tired from my busy day at the job fair. But I think part of it also had to do with the fact that pretty much every argument used on both sides was either something I had heard, or something I had thought of before. Nothing new. That seems like something I've been learning about religion lately...you're never going to have enough proof to convince yourself 100%. You'll never know for sure. And there may come a point where, there will be no more new proof. You'll only have to base your decision on what you got. But you have to make a decision one way or the other, or declare yourself an agnostic who can never know, which still means you have made a decision...
On my new roomie:
She's always apologizing for things that don't come even close to offending me, and complimenting and thanking me all the time. She's lately been telling me, "Nicole, thank you so much for everything you do for me. You're such a good person....I feel like you give so much to me, and I really hope that sometime I can give something back to you." I don't do anything different for her than I do for any ordinary person, just little things like let her use my printer, or fix her computer, or let her borrow my reading light. But when she tells me this, I honestly don't know how to respond. It just came to me...that's because I've never really felt this appreciated before. I mean, overall appreciation, not just for one specific thing I've done...like I'm fulfilling my overall purpose. I've felt love, and friendship....but never true appreciation and the sense of purpose, like how Anne expresses to me. Because of this, when she does compliment me like this, I feel in a way like I don't really deserve it. Maybe I should do that more to other people, show them appreciation for what they do in my life. I can see how much it means to me.
Good news: A company you'd really like to work for is having you come in for an interview/site tour on Friday.
Bad news: The interview/site tour lasts all day, starting at 8 am and going for eight hours.
Good news: You find out several managers from said company have seen your resume and want to talk to you about working for them.
Bad news: This means there you will have SIX DIFFERENT INTERVIEWS on Friday.
So if I die on Friday, you now know why.
On theology:
So, tonight I went to a debate between Greg Boyd (famous Christian apologist) and Bob Price (famous evangelical-Christian-turned-atheist). Normally, I eat things like this up. I love debates like this, they help me clarify what I believe, and why I believe it. But there was something missing tonight. Maybe it was just because I was tired from my busy day at the job fair. But I think part of it also had to do with the fact that pretty much every argument used on both sides was either something I had heard, or something I had thought of before. Nothing new. That seems like something I've been learning about religion lately...you're never going to have enough proof to convince yourself 100%. You'll never know for sure. And there may come a point where, there will be no more new proof. You'll only have to base your decision on what you got. But you have to make a decision one way or the other, or declare yourself an agnostic who can never know, which still means you have made a decision...
On my new roomie:
She's always apologizing for things that don't come even close to offending me, and complimenting and thanking me all the time. She's lately been telling me, "Nicole, thank you so much for everything you do for me. You're such a good person....I feel like you give so much to me, and I really hope that sometime I can give something back to you." I don't do anything different for her than I do for any ordinary person, just little things like let her use my printer, or fix her computer, or let her borrow my reading light. But when she tells me this, I honestly don't know how to respond. It just came to me...that's because I've never really felt this appreciated before. I mean, overall appreciation, not just for one specific thing I've done...like I'm fulfilling my overall purpose. I've felt love, and friendship....but never true appreciation and the sense of purpose, like how Anne expresses to me. Because of this, when she does compliment me like this, I feel in a way like I don't really deserve it. Maybe I should do that more to other people, show them appreciation for what they do in my life. I can see how much it means to me.