mmm tired... what it's a half day? sweet! (or so it should've been)
There were good things in today. There really were. Meaghan and I going to You're a Good Man Charlie Brown was really fun, especially telling her about the aliens that implanted a light in my hand that allows me to see invisible things and calling laura and explaining to her about the aliens as wll.
Spending half the day with Corey was very good but the very goodness was kind of in short spurts, and no fault goes to corey. We went to skate world and it was quite a good time watching Corey wobble and flail and run into things while I glided by him gracefully. Then we sat down and he said "ya know what's bad?" and I said what? and he said "I have a hole in my pants" and I was like oooh really, and he showed me and he was thankful it wasn't visible. Then he stood up. I said "um. corey. you might want to sit back down." There was a rip in the back of his pants from the top of his pocket to the bottom of his butt. We had to leave, with my jacket tied around corey's waist so no one else would get a preview of his underwear :-P
So, that was the good stuff of the day. Now, bad stuff.
Choir problem: I'll be as brief as I can. I have a shakespeare in the park benefit performance april 29th and the last two rehearsals are the saturday and friday night before then. The state competition is april 28th, so I would be missing the friday rehearsal so that I can stay the night. However. My choir teacher randomly decided to add another concert to our schedule, without telling anyone or putting it on any actual schedule that anyone could see and told me that it was the night of april 28th and that she needs me to be there as her strongest soprano and robe crew manager.
We discussed, amanda and I got mad then calmed down and discussed it some more. By the end, Kimberly had an arrangement for me which she felt was reasonable. Wanna hear what it is?
I request an afternoon singing time so that I don't have to stay the night in portland and I can go to my friday rehearsal. Then, she'll arrange the choir concert so that concert choir is first and I can leave the concert to go to my rehearsal. What does this mean my day will look like?
2 hour drive to portland.
compete at state
2 hour drive back from portland
organize and run robe crew
sing in cocert
do 2 hour dress rehearsal.
die.
So that was my morning.
Then in the afternoon, Corey wanted me to go swim suit shopping cause he's planning on taking me swimming in a week. For some reason the whole swimming thing has been freaking me out though I'm not sure why, cause although it's true i don't actually know how to swim, it seems deeper than that. After avoiding it like crazy for a long time, i finally picked out a bathing suit and tried it on.
There was a time when I was crazy insecure about my appearance. Like, paranoid thinking everyone was staring at me because I look so "bad" at dances insecure. This year I've managed to get over most of those insecurities. When I tried on that swim suit, it all came crashing back. I'm not positive of why, but I hated myself so much when I saw myself in the mirror with that swim suit on. I really freaked out. I took it off, went out to corey,almost in tears, and said, let's go. He knew something was wrong but I just said let's go I'll tell you later. I was really really upset. It took a long time before I came back up from that low.
Sleep sounds really good. Peaceful.
Spending half the day with Corey was very good but the very goodness was kind of in short spurts, and no fault goes to corey. We went to skate world and it was quite a good time watching Corey wobble and flail and run into things while I glided by him gracefully. Then we sat down and he said "ya know what's bad?" and I said what? and he said "I have a hole in my pants" and I was like oooh really, and he showed me and he was thankful it wasn't visible. Then he stood up. I said "um. corey. you might want to sit back down." There was a rip in the back of his pants from the top of his pocket to the bottom of his butt. We had to leave, with my jacket tied around corey's waist so no one else would get a preview of his underwear :-P
So, that was the good stuff of the day. Now, bad stuff.
Choir problem: I'll be as brief as I can. I have a shakespeare in the park benefit performance april 29th and the last two rehearsals are the saturday and friday night before then. The state competition is april 28th, so I would be missing the friday rehearsal so that I can stay the night. However. My choir teacher randomly decided to add another concert to our schedule, without telling anyone or putting it on any actual schedule that anyone could see and told me that it was the night of april 28th and that she needs me to be there as her strongest soprano and robe crew manager.
We discussed, amanda and I got mad then calmed down and discussed it some more. By the end, Kimberly had an arrangement for me which she felt was reasonable. Wanna hear what it is?
I request an afternoon singing time so that I don't have to stay the night in portland and I can go to my friday rehearsal. Then, she'll arrange the choir concert so that concert choir is first and I can leave the concert to go to my rehearsal. What does this mean my day will look like?
2 hour drive to portland.
compete at state
2 hour drive back from portland
organize and run robe crew
sing in cocert
do 2 hour dress rehearsal.
die.
So that was my morning.
Then in the afternoon, Corey wanted me to go swim suit shopping cause he's planning on taking me swimming in a week. For some reason the whole swimming thing has been freaking me out though I'm not sure why, cause although it's true i don't actually know how to swim, it seems deeper than that. After avoiding it like crazy for a long time, i finally picked out a bathing suit and tried it on.
There was a time when I was crazy insecure about my appearance. Like, paranoid thinking everyone was staring at me because I look so "bad" at dances insecure. This year I've managed to get over most of those insecurities. When I tried on that swim suit, it all came crashing back. I'm not positive of why, but I hated myself so much when I saw myself in the mirror with that swim suit on. I really freaked out. I took it off, went out to corey,almost in tears, and said, let's go. He knew something was wrong but I just said let's go I'll tell you later. I was really really upset. It took a long time before I came back up from that low.
Sleep sounds really good. Peaceful.