ITS 6:41 A.M.!!!
Its 6:41 a.m. And I just can't seem to silence my thoughts enough for me to go to sleep. It is just plain ridiculous to try and live a normal life. I feel pressure, depression, anxiety, unfit, unworthy, unwanted, confused, split, dumb, indecisive, stupid, but mostly, I just feel lost...like...I'm just wandering, aimlessly, wasting my life...but I can't make myself believe this. Believe that this is my only choice. My only shot at...life. What is life without all of you? But then again. One day....you'll grow up and leave me forever...go on with your lives. And I'll realize I have wasted all my time because I'm afraid. Afraid to let go. Afraid of change. This is all just too much. I feel...I don't know....insignificant? Not enough? Like a failure...?
I dunno.
I'm gonna try and sleep...or something like it.
"Man always has pain in his heart.
Since his heart feels pain,
He experiences life as pain."
"It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more."
Night.
And for you...no matter how far the distance, how long the silence... T.L.A. <3
I dunno.
I'm gonna try and sleep...or something like it.
"Man always has pain in his heart.
Since his heart feels pain,
He experiences life as pain."
"It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more."
Night.
And for you...no matter how far the distance, how long the silence... T.L.A. <3