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well i'm crazy, depressed, and suicidal. thats what they say....
i reluctantly thought i'd go into family mediation... because i'm sick of being poor.
went there met with a fake counceler... who is also a chiropracters assistant, a fragrence specialist, chinese medicalist, and intuitve reader.(which i looked up and cant find the definition of... but it goes hand in hand with phycic healer on many pages) So basically what i'm getting at was i was double teamed all these questions by my aunt and some crazy lady who doesnt know a GOD DAMN THING about psychology... and basically knows how plants in china smell.... whatever. she said i had no emotion and lots of built up rage. and because i didnt want to oopen up to this fricken QUACK about my entire goddamn life.... i was suicidal... so now i have to go again some time, prolly next wendsday. how can she diagnose me when she doesnt even know me, and god knows, shes not a real doctor. whatever. i'm completely numb to the idea of this whole thing. i'm not suicidal, or depressed, or crazy or whatever. then the quack said i needed to write things down and blah blah blah. honestly... whatever... it was so lame. not to mention the whole little meeting took place at chilis and i knew people everywhere and it was weird and it was crazy. and i swear to god IF ONE MORE FUCKING PERSON MENTIONS COLLEGE OR MY FUTURE PLANS AGAIN i will punch them in the fucking face. LIKE its everyones fricken buisness that more likely than not i will go nowhere in life and not go to college. WHAT THE FUCK?! do you really care. probably not. but whatever. i quit. this is such bullshit! i do believe this. its my life. do you honesly think that either 1. you have an original question or 2. i want to talk to you.... i hate my life. i hate my family. and most of all i'm pissed off and fucking hate my LACK of future. my god. cant everyone just leave me alone and go bother the people that actually care what you think about them. for like one second. my future, college, blah blah blah. heres the answer: i am going to be a hobo and travel around spreading good will of men and the like kinda like confucious or jesus, thats my plan. but yeah.... grrrr..... FUCKING SUICIDAL! i am not... i would much rather kill you than fucking kill myself ..... fuckin' ay....
i quit...
thats my life, thats what i've been dreading all day, and thats why i was in a ranky mood all day yesterday because i was dreading this.... and WHAT THE HELL IS AN INTUITIVE READER/ LIFE COACH? UGH.... for the record, i dont need shit from you too. cause ya know that'll make my life so much better....
~Rob
In a mad world only the mad are sane.
Akira Kurosawa (1910 - )