Three days til La
And break is.... done. Weird.
I think I've had a good run of it here, kids. Did a lot of what I came to do: hang with the padres, work, get fucked up and see some friends...see Teenie (probably my favorite part of break, if I'm being truthful.) It's surreal coming home after being away, and now having to leave again for the completely different world that is my life now, excuse my pretentious diction. But seriously...life in LA is so far removed from life here, in terms of who I know, what I do. Granted, my life here pretty much ended four months ago, but it's weird to know completely different people, live in a completely different section of the state, live day-to-day in a completely different manner. Do I feel wistful? Nostalgic? A bit I suppose...but that could also be the Third Eye Blind playing in the background. Mostly, it's like there's so much here I was ready to leave behind the first time, and being back, while it exposes me to the good parts of Sacramento, also opens up old wounds. Opens up the alienation of my friends in the weeks before I moved, the frustrations with my little brother, the pain of the ex-boyfriend. ( "I have to get used to saying that now...ex ex ex EX! He's my EX-husband!") Yeah. I think I need to get back to LA before that all seeps in and makes me forget what I should be focusing on in life.
On another note, I am filthy right now. Haven't showered since the day before New Years Eve, and I can only imagine how filthy I got that night.
HAPPY NEW YEARS! Good-bye infantile-stage addictions! Good-bye certain hangups! Good-bye, Good-bye, Good-bye....
I think I've had a good run of it here, kids. Did a lot of what I came to do: hang with the padres, work, get fucked up and see some friends...see Teenie (probably my favorite part of break, if I'm being truthful.) It's surreal coming home after being away, and now having to leave again for the completely different world that is my life now, excuse my pretentious diction. But seriously...life in LA is so far removed from life here, in terms of who I know, what I do. Granted, my life here pretty much ended four months ago, but it's weird to know completely different people, live in a completely different section of the state, live day-to-day in a completely different manner. Do I feel wistful? Nostalgic? A bit I suppose...but that could also be the Third Eye Blind playing in the background. Mostly, it's like there's so much here I was ready to leave behind the first time, and being back, while it exposes me to the good parts of Sacramento, also opens up old wounds. Opens up the alienation of my friends in the weeks before I moved, the frustrations with my little brother, the pain of the ex-boyfriend. ( "I have to get used to saying that now...ex ex ex EX! He's my EX-husband!") Yeah. I think I need to get back to LA before that all seeps in and makes me forget what I should be focusing on in life.
On another note, I am filthy right now. Haven't showered since the day before New Years Eve, and I can only imagine how filthy I got that night.
HAPPY NEW YEARS! Good-bye infantile-stage addictions! Good-bye certain hangups! Good-bye, Good-bye, Good-bye....