Thoughts....

Oct 10, 2006 05:22

Hey everyone. Just figured that it was time I shared some of what is on my mind. Lately I have been doing alot of thinking. I have been kind of stressed lately. I think I am too comfortable with the way everything is and I am sick of being comfortable. I want change. I want things to be different. That is why I have been wanting to go to a different church. So I think I am gonna start looking for a new one. Not that there is anything terribly wrong with MRBC. But Im sick of it. I want out. I want away. Its hard to explain. There are some reasons I can share, others I can't. So if you have any suggestions on where I should go to church let me know and I will think about it. Also, since I have graduated I feel under appreciated. At work mostly. Which is why I am now looking for a fulltime job. And if necessary I will move to get that job. I just need the money to do so first. My car is taking a crap on me, so I dont know what Im gonna do there yet, but Ill figure it out. Then I have this great guy I have been dating for almost three months now, yet somehow I just don't feel completely attached to him. I mean I am but not in the same way Im used to being attached to somoene. Its very different. Im still trying to figure it out. I dont think I have completely healed from my past yet. I dont know if I ever will. I think Im just broken/damaged goods. I will never feel right again. Part of me....most of me is gone. I lost it somewhere along the way and failed to care enough to get it back. So thats whats been going on. Let me know what you all think.
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