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ok, so here is where i lay out all my reasons for not wanting to be with chris again. because i'm afraid that i'll be weak again... do what my heart says and not my head. that i'll just give in.
i don't want to have to fight for attention. i want the kind of love where we are both totally and completely head over heels for eachother. i never want to feel like the other person isn't giving me the attention that i need or want.
i'm not going to change, really. this is me. i've always been this person. i've grown up a bit, learned a bit, but basically under it all, i'm the same person that i was before. yes, i do still want to work on things... such as jealousy. but i want to br with someone who will help me with it... not just get angry with me for it.
obviously, we tried it for 3 and half years and it didn't work out.
i don't want to be in a relationship that is going nowhere. after more than 3 years, don't you know if you want something or not? being in a dead end relationship basically means not having those opportunities to meet new people that may not be dead end people.
sometimes i think that we've been through too much.
i don't want to be with someone who doesn't appreciate me the way that i deserve. i need to be told that i'm wonderful. i like that.
i want to be with someone who is my best friend as well as my boyfriend. i don't want to be left out of his life. i don't want to be with someone who won't take me to the bar with them and leave me out of that kind of fun.
i don't want to be with someone who will just sit in front of a computer all day long, ignoring me. i want someone who likes to be active, someone who tries new and fun things, who thinks of creative dates.
i think that is enough for now. i have to work early, so i'll come back soon and finish.
i don't want to have to fight for attention. i want the kind of love where we are both totally and completely head over heels for eachother. i never want to feel like the other person isn't giving me the attention that i need or want.
i'm not going to change, really. this is me. i've always been this person. i've grown up a bit, learned a bit, but basically under it all, i'm the same person that i was before. yes, i do still want to work on things... such as jealousy. but i want to br with someone who will help me with it... not just get angry with me for it.
obviously, we tried it for 3 and half years and it didn't work out.
i don't want to be in a relationship that is going nowhere. after more than 3 years, don't you know if you want something or not? being in a dead end relationship basically means not having those opportunities to meet new people that may not be dead end people.
sometimes i think that we've been through too much.
i don't want to be with someone who doesn't appreciate me the way that i deserve. i need to be told that i'm wonderful. i like that.
i want to be with someone who is my best friend as well as my boyfriend. i don't want to be left out of his life. i don't want to be with someone who won't take me to the bar with them and leave me out of that kind of fun.
i don't want to be with someone who will just sit in front of a computer all day long, ignoring me. i want someone who likes to be active, someone who tries new and fun things, who thinks of creative dates.
i think that is enough for now. i have to work early, so i'll come back soon and finish.